Please come now I think I'm falling I'm holding on to all I think is safe It seems I found the road to nowhere And I'm trying to escape
Iyelledback when I heard thunder But I'm down to one last breath And with it let me say Let me say
Hold me now I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking That maybe six feet Ain't so far down
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i feel suicidal whenever i hear thing song. ironically, i checked on my phone and it read:
6ft : 182.000 something cm.
hur? 182 cm only? or is ft not = to feet?
i dont know. i gotta go. should i stay? or should i go.
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anyway, i just realised something.
); means you're unhappy with your life.
): means you're feeling down.
)): means your feeling sad.
)):: means you feel like crying.
))::::: means you're crying.
)):::::::::: means there's too much tears needed to be let out. and you're crying literally and emotionally.
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its hard holding you, loving you, losing you.
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i was hearing FIX YOU by coldplay a moment ago. feeling super emo.
When you try your best but you don't succeed When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired but youcan't sleep Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone but it goes to waste could it be worse?
so i was singing this to myself just now. and tears suddenly streamed down my face. the song's working very well.
okay. good thing about this is that, i havent tried hard enough.
bad thing, im not in the mood to try now and i dont have the time.
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i'll try to fix you.
(Thursday, September 28, 2006 / 12:31 am)
Single, taken or crushing? Single and available(: no, i should learn from chng hu-hu. single and UNAVAILABLE! yes, thats the attitude. crushing sounds fun. but not at the moment, after promos probably.
Are you happy with your life now? NO. my current life, DEFINITELY NOT! i cant wait for promos to end. no wait, i cant wait for myself to transform into miss mugger poh.
When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast? erm, good question. maybe mr right hasnt appeared? i dont know.
Have you ever had your heart broken? ha. im a virgin to relationships. so.. i guess not? let me recall.. haha my crushes are normally pretty minor. so yep, not that kind of super heart broken stuff i guess.
Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable? i dont suppose so.
Would you take someone back if he cheats on you? hmm. lets see how charismatic that guy is. someone like jon would be good. muaha. alright, enough of fantasies but it all depends on the circumstance i guess.
Have you talk about marriage with another before? OF COURSE. i fantasize about marriage actually. its kind of cool to be a rich tai-tai, or otherwise, i wanna be an alpha woman. waha.
Do you want children? DEFINITELY. but i think i'll die conceiving children. it looks uber pain.
How many? Two would be perfect.
Would you consider adoption? Why not?
If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings? Telling me would be good. hmm, its kind of scary to tell the person u like about how u feel right. brr.
Do you enjoy getting into relationships? i've never gotten into one before(;
Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did? no ex.
Do you believe in love at first sight? YES. but they say LAFS is normally based on looks, to some extent, i've gotta admit that. lol. but i believe in it!
Are you romantic? i guess so. when im in love. ahha, i dont know, i normally source ideas from those cheesy romantic movies. ohno! im sinking into another period of americanisation whereby hollywood movies are flocking into my mind again!
Do you believe you can change someone? mmhmm. thats very possible. since im such a nice, influential, caring, considerate, kind, grateful, appreciative, er okay. the list goes on. basically, u get what i mean yeah(;
If you could get married somewhere, where would it be? European nations like.. ITALY! i've been there and its great for all great romance to begin i think.
Do you easily give in when you are fighting? lol. fighting? hmm. what kind of fight! but most of the time, i think i give in. i cant stand wars.
Do you have feelings for someone right now? well oh well. u shall see.
Have you ever broken a heart? Er. whats this!? if i said yes, make me sound like im a super sui girl with many suitors. if i said no, make me sound like some fugly toot with some freaking character. ha, i dont know.
If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you deeply in love with, what would you do? HOHA. i think jan asked before. i'll give up the guy provided the guy's not in love with me. if its not a 2way r/s, why bother hanging on to it. Plus, i believe that friendships are equally important as relationships.
Are you missing someone now? No. my mind's preoccupied with promos. its like, everything comes after promos. i just cant wait for my miserable life to end. Aft promos = more tanning, exercising, dieting, meeting up with kaka, chilling with assfiveonemateys, chalet, SUPER HIONG choir practices (which im not exactly looking forward too, i've no idea why too) and almost everything under the sun!
(Wednesday, September 27, 2006 / 8:07 pm)
hmm. been mugging a bit of math today. not that much, but at least, i mugged. but this is definitely not enough. i dont wanna feel like shit when i've done my papers next week like how i felt today. gp was definitely horrible. lets pray that my essay will do wonders. alright. i cant believe how dumb and tired i felt during gp exam today. drats.
anyway, i found jon's song! chasing cars! so i excitedly went to tell the next jon fan -- ISABELLE. and then, she told me that there was actually this JON FORUM which allows ALL HIS FANS TO DL HIS SONGS. omfg. i couldnt believe this shit. kenny and i still waited for ARES to allow jon's song to be downloaded. lol, so dumb.
anyway, just in case ure a jon fan and ure interested, heres the link!
I SHOOK JON'S HAND when he was telling us to do relax and smile when we're going up the stage. when we sang finish, he even gave us thumbs up! although only francesca saw it. lol.
hahaha. im really tired la. guess what, neh study today. ytd also. omfg.
the idol's experience so cool. but it would be perfect w/o promos.
sometimes, i just feel like sitting in front of the telly and become a victim of mass media. ahha as what danny would have said. but i really feel like getting a few dvds, sit in front of the telly, watch my life pass me by. those kind of STONING periods yar. its so boring studying. i cant fucking take the pressure anymore. alright, there isnt much pressure. im like TOTALLY SIAN DIAO now. its so boring studying.
alright. pics will be up tmr. johnnie that pig went to sleep already! haha. see ya dudettos.
JON's super nice vocally and personality wise. i think those forms up the 2 main reasons why he gotta win tmr.(;
omg. i even bought the LIME mag that has him in the cover(;
(Sunday, September 24, 2006 / 1:28 am)
I SPOKE TO JON..
this time round, in close proximity but too bad he was in a rush!
so irritating okay, isabelle, sx(OF ALL PPL SX!!!), bla and bla, went to the top2 room and waited for the idols to come out and they signed for them. omg, even got personalised msg lei, i dont even know if they're free tmr night aft the performance to sign for us not lo!
hahaha.
and jon's so friendly la.
just now right, even though he was in a rush, while we're having nurul's autograph, jon suddenly pop out from one of the many many doors u can find in the stadium.
so i saw jon, without hesitation, i said,
jonathan! can we have your autograph?
jon said,
oh later okay? cos im rushing off to ...(some camera thingy shit la! hahaha)
but he replied so nicely la. aww.. haha and jon's much friendlier than hady okay. hady seems quite cocky. hur.
and joakim's CUTE AND FRIENDLY. hahaha. and he's quite tall. on the contrary, jon's quite short, he's not that tall and dont have really such broad shoulders as we see on the telly. but overall, still GREAT(;
tmr remember to wear WHITE okay! support jon!(;
(Saturday, September 23, 2006 / 1:13 am)
MAIN HIGHLIGHT:
I SPOKE TO JON! wahaha. so lucky right. but it was at a distance though. about say, 6metres? lol. he was speaking through the mic to communicate with me la. alright this was what happened.
he got on the stage after hady rehearsed the final song with the choir. then jon got up, so after he got his postition right and stuff and rehearsed with the choir one time, he looked at his watch. meanwhile, the jon fans, me and isabelle who were positioned at the best corner to admire jon when he's singing, cos we're the first people of our row and we're like supposed to go out and be black mommas while they're singing. yup, so back to jon, he was looking at his watch, then he turned around and said,
Do you guys have transportation back?
*i guess isabelle was still wondering who he was talking too while i blurted out a har? and he repeated, you guys have transportation back with his low sexy voice muaha.
then i shook my head and said no.
jon was like,
oh, cos its getting really late.
WAHA. im like .. yar!
HAHAHAHA. starstruck man.
fyi, we even met other stars like our very own yr3 senior, jasmine tye and JOAKIM(wahha, jan must be super excited) and paul twohill. haha, took pics with them! weehee.
alright, we even got this cool singapore idol tag that we have to wear around in the indoor stadium. cool shit, but the bad thing's that, we're kept inside the room for so long la before we can rehearse with the idols. cant even study properly. i hope tmr's gonna be a better mugging day. ahaha. alright. its getting late. yes. hahaha.
shud be going to bed soon!
(Thursday, September 21, 2006 / 5:10 pm)
I SAW JONATHAN LEONG! didnt see the rest though although yt, sx, gan and sharon saw paul, jay and jasmine at the wardrobe and the mags even took a picture of them! guess they're gonna be on SG IDOL mag and teens. so lucky!
wahaha. although i'll be down for rehearsals until midnight for sg idol on fri sat and my sun and mon's gone for the live performance and results show, i think i still dont regret going for idol. its a lifetime experience okay! PLUS, i get to see all the stars at backstage! muaha. shall try getting jon's autograph. but i havent done such stuff before, damn noob. need suizabor janice seah qiao yun's help on this man. LOL.
he looked so shuai la.
and sx was so irritating! keep saying that jon sucks and he will lose. rah. i mean u dont know who will lose until the result show AND we havent even heard how the 2 idols' song choices. so how can we make such a judgement. so irritating. and i realised that the main thing about jon is not that he's hot, but he's voice is really good. so even if u dont like him, i mean everyone has his/her own view right, we just shouldnt say that that person's not good. hmm.
(Wednesday, September 20, 2006 / 6:38 pm)
OMFG. cant believe this. jan actually DIVULGED the next America's NEXT TOP MODEL while after we bathed in the toilet today. rah. on the flip side, its good. cos NOW i can safely visit whatever top model websites whenever i want. muaha.
but why didnt joanie or mollie sue win!? RAH. haha a bit of a spoiler.
sigh, pretty girls are always not winners. like kahleen, from cycle5. did i get her name right? ahha. anyway, NAIMA's so freaking cool, so it isnt a pity that kahleen didnt win. weehee. i thought mollie sue could be the next naima);
okay. i thought this was kind of interesting.
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NEW YORK - New York remained the safest of the nation's 10 largest cities in 2005, with about one crime reported for every 37 people, according to FBI statistics.
The annual report "shows that our innovative efforts to reduce crime and increase New Yorkers' quality of life are working," Mayor Michael Bloomberg said in a statement Monday after the agency released the figures.
The large city with the highest total crime rate was Dallas, with about one crime reported for every 12 people. Los Angeles, the nation's second largest city, ranked third safest, with about one crime for every 26 people.
San Jose took the No. 2 spot, while San Diego ranked fourth. Chicago, Philadelphia, Houston, San Antonio and then Phoenix followed.
--
Anyway, i just updated all the sg idol practices on the forum. GO CHECK IT OUT OKAY, instead of asking me questions in school. haha, omg, the practices are killing me. but this is good, i love pressure, and this sg idol is really pressurising cos there is practices/rehearsals on thurs, fri, sat, sun and mon. waha. good, i can be reminded that im REALLY short of time. time for tuition! GOODBYE(;
I can't imagine all the people that you know And the places that you go When the lights are turned down low And I don't understand All the things you've seen But I'm slipping in between You and your big... dreams it's always you and my big dreams
And you tell me That it's over But i can't stand here in a patch of four leaf clover And your restless And I'm naked You've got to get out You can't stand to see me shaking no, could you let me go
and you don't want to be here in the future So you say the present's just a pleasant Interruption to the past And you don't want to look much closer 'Cause you're afraid to find out all this hope That you had sent into the sky by now had... crashed and it did because of me
And then you bring me home Afraid to find out that you're alone, no And I'm sleeping in your living room But we don't have much room To live
And I had dreams that i would learn to play guitar Maybe cross the country Become a rockstar And there was hope in me That I could take you there But dammit you're so young But I don't think I care and if I hurt you then i'm sorry It's just this guilt has got the best of me
This is because I can spell konfusion with a K It's hard to like it It's to dying in anothers arms and why i had to try it It's to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car But this time i'm alone, and i don't see those stars I'm not your star? Isn't that what you said what you thought this song meant you thought this song meant
And if this is what it takes just to lie in my mistakes and live with what I did to you And all the things i put you through I always catch the clock it's 11:11 And now you want to talk it's not hard to dream You'll always be my Konstantine
They'll never hurt you like I do No, They'll never hurt you like I do No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No
This is to a girl who got into my head with all these pretty things she did Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed It's to a girl who got into my head with all the fucked up things I did Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed My Konstantine
Spin around me like a dream We played out on this movie screen And I said, Did you know I miss you Did you know I miss you Did you know I miss you Did you know I miss you Did you know I miss you Did you know I miss you Did you know I miss you
God, I miss you
And then you bring me home And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no no, And you'll kiss me in your living room, oh And you see, no, that i've been missing in my Living room Cause this is what i miss, what i miss We don't have much room I said, does anybody need that room? Because we all need a little more room To live
My Konstantine
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what a beautiful long song that lasts about 9+minutes. anyway, once again, cant believe i slacked at home today. under immense guilt and feeling remorseful. what the hell. when am i ever gonna wake up and tell myself its just a freaking 13 days left to promos. shooots.
shootme.killme.
bangbang.
i die.
if only life's that simple.
(Sunday, September 17, 2006 / 1:13 am)
Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind.
Should I let you fall? Lose it all? So maybe you can remember yourself. Can't keep believing, We're only deceiving ourselves . And I'm sick of the lie, And you're too late.
Don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. You want me, Come find me. Make up your mind.
Couldn't take the blame. Sick with shame. Must be exhausting to lose your own game. Selfishly hated, No wonder you're jaded. You can't play the victim this time, And you're too late.
You never call me when you're sober. You only want it cause it's over, It's over.
How could I have burned paradise? How could I - you were never mine.
So don't cry to me. If you loved me, You would be here with me. Don't lie to me, Just get your things. I've made up your mind.
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all of a sudden, the lyrics spring to life. i didnt get it a few weeks ago, the time has finally arrived.
( / 1:08 am)
Sometimes its really funny when u can suddenly stop believing in what u have always believed in for your whole life. amazing yet true.
alright. life's gonna be boring these days except for prep for sg idol. its just eating lesser, and hopefully not more because of the stress, mugging, neopets and promos! gosh, cant even work out these days. dont have the mood probably.
whatever has happened to me recently?
sigh. i want to time travel back to history, only to know that whats impossible will always be impossible. its time to let go and allow nature to take its course.
alright. here i am again, blogging randomly as usual. it must be the stress from promos.
(Saturday, September 16, 2006 / 1:02 am)
A BIG HELLO TO ALL FRIENDS ESP IQBAL, CHILL DONT SO PISSED. check out the NEW HONDA COMMERIAL FIRST(;
Subject: Honda Ad
This is one clever Honda commercial..
Be sure to read the info first, and then watch the clip. And you thought those people that set up roomfuls of dominos to knock over were amazing. There are no computer graphics or digital tricks in the film. Everything you see really happened in real time exactly as you
see it.
The film took 606 takes. On the first 605 takes, something, usually very
minor, didn't work. They would then have to set the whole thing up again. The crew spent weeks shooting night and day. By the time it was over, they were ready to changeprofessions.
The film cost six million dollars and took three months to complete including full engineering of the sequence. In addition, it's two minutes long so every time Honda airs the film on British television, they're shelling out enough dough to keep any one of us in clover for a lifetime.
However, it is fast becoming the most downloaded advertisement in Internet history. Honda executives figure the ad will soon pay for its self simply in "free viewings" (Honda isn't paying a dime to have you watch this commercial!).
When the ad was pitched to senior executives, they signed off on it immediately without any hesitation - including the costs.
There are six and only six hand-made Honda Accords in the world. To the
horror of Honda engineers, the filmmakers disassembled two of them to make the film.
Everything you see in the film (aside from the walls, floor, ramp, and complete Honda Accord) is parts from those two cars.
The voiceover is Garrison Keillor. When the ad was shown to Honda executives, they liked it and commented on how amazing computer graphics
have gotten.
They fell off their chairs when they found out it was for real. Oh, and about those funky windshield wipers. On the new Accords, the windshield wipers have water sensors and are designed to start doing their thing automatically as soon as they become wet.
hoha. iqbal's obviously not very for my incessant blogging tonight. anyway he just told me something which reminded me that ive gotta get this off my chest by today.
its finally time to let go of history! and im glad, i think i finally managed to do so today. weeha, i feeeeel so relieved. thanks a lot. moaha. im gonna look forward to the future and treasure the present. yes, thats the way!(;
i hope everything's gonna be alright(: YES. u can do this, miss mugger POH WAN TING, haha this kind of reminds me of how xiuqi like to refer to herself although shes such a NONMUGGER LA! muaha.
goodnight.
im off to mug.
..
erm, i hope(:
( / 12:36 am)
hello blog! i've been mugging for 1/3 of my time and spending the rest on neopets! wahha. im making it big. im gonna earn 100k in like 10days despite of the fact that PROMOS is coming! wahaha.
today was such a short school day. i reached school compounds at approx 940am and reached home at 115! weeha.
anyway, today was so scary and fun. ahhaha, basically, we slacked throughout geog tutorial and ended up gg for DAng's math lecture late. ahahha, jus in case u didnt know DAng's - danielang, also the BD guy if u've been reading my blog recently. lol. then for the first time, i asked FSB so many math questions during his tutorial. about 7 lor. i rock man(:
today was like filled with burdens for me for the first half of the day. cos i had to see melvin tan and tell him why i didnt attend pe on wed. omfg, i was seriously quite scared. apparently, everyone else seemed busy. no one could go with me to find him. luckily, the biggest as in literally biggest saviour mr bu ying jun, aka johnnie, decided to be nice and accompany me to find mr tan. and he even suggested telling mr tan that i was sick on wednesday and that i've already informed johnnie abt it just that he forgot to tell mr tan. wahha. goood idea right(; felt quite bad la, sort of tarnish johnnie's reputation a little. oh well); anyway, it worked and mr tan let me. u cant imagine how relieved i felt man!
oh boy.
so thereafter, since it was raining heavily, i decided to hop onto johnnie's cab as usual, as in he take cab not he drive, muahaha, and i got a free ride home! okay, not free, i very nice one, will pay one lo! hahahaha. super drenched la and that nice johnnie even lend me his vj file so that i can shelter myself all the way out of sch. and he was drenched from head to toe la! hahaha, thanks ar mr bu ying jun.
oohlala. im complimenting people again! see, im so nice recently. eh wait, not recently, constantly 24/7.
THATS ALL PEOPLE.
im gonna go off, wait iqbal guai lan me, since we're supposed to study at 12am and nows 1240 already! wahhahahhahaa.
p/s: tell me how to study geog and econs can. im so dead! 2weeks left and i havent touch both yet!
(Thursday, September 14, 2006 / 12:25 pm)
can u believe this shit. i think my body's getting cranky these days.
last night, i suddenly felt cold for no reason. so i suspected i might be suffering from a slight fever cos on the previous day, i had sorethroat and flu. this morning, got headache and thats not the worse. after my headache was gone, i think i ate something wrong! made at least 5 toilet trips in 2 hours. rah. my legs are getting wobblyyyyy.
this is really random. but did u know that mischa barton's from UK not the US. ahahaha okay back to more studying. not mugging. havent become a mugger yet. ):
( / 9:29 pm)
Helloo. i dont think i'll be coming here in the near future.
unless i really need to RANT about PROMOS.
which is quite true, i've alot of stuff to rant about. maybe not today.
(Tuesday, September 12, 2006 / 9:13 pm)
have u ever felt like u were bugged by this major issue which only happens in shows, internet, other countries and it will be impossible for it to happen on you, though many believe in impossible is nothing. i guess im one of the minorities. anyway, when this happens, u feel very listless for the whole day. u dont get things done. u dont do things right. u just squander your whole day thinking about it.
and this is bad. i swear.
( / 8:57 pm)
over excitement can kill.
i just died.
( / 3:56 pm)
Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love. Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high I don't want to let go, girl. I just need you to know girl.
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight, No promises. Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight
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ooh. i just love that song, no promises by shayne ward. by the way, for all the BACK AT ONE fans, shayne ward did back at one too. guess his version is a bit more focussed on better articulation as compared to brian's. haha.
omfg. i was feeling so sickly this morning la. initially, thought i could pon sch today do some work and satisfy my craving for mugging. in the end, i caught this flu bug from god knows where and i had this super really bad sorethroat. must be due to the incessant singing and trying to reach high notes using my throat voice ytd. ate a lot of heaty stuff too! drats. today have to drink a lot of water.
alright. i spend the whole afternoon doing something happy. not mugging though. haha. and guess what, im really happy now. its like an inexplicable sense of euphoria within you. omg. i love this(; muahahaha. alright, really happy now! WEEHEE!
( / 1:27 am)
CAN YOU FREAKING BELIEVE THIS FUCKING SHIT.
I MISSED AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL. I WANNA SEE NENNA MOLLIE SUE AND JOANIE! FUCK. I MISSED THE SHOW.
okay. I TRIED SEARCHING FOR THE EPISODES ON YOUTUBE. IM SO FRIGGIN GLAD THAT I DIDNT ACTUALLY LOOK AT THE SPOILER'S SECTION. ITS LIKE LMAO, I HAD TO USE MY HANDS TO COVER THE MOST OF THE WEBSITE EXCEPT FOR THE TITLE OF THE EPISODE. FREAKING SHIT.
darn. cant believe i missed it. can any kind soul give me a detailed synopsis of last night's episode. RAH.
alright, undeniably, i was doing something far more important. so i dont really regret not watching, buttt.. i didnt get to see how JOANIE fared); hmph!
( / 1:13 am)
im starting to fret.
no one's coming online. that should be good. to prevent me from getting addicted to the internet when promos just three weeks away. shit. i SHOULD be noo i MUST be mugging for promos now. as i said, i dont wanna feel like i didnt put in my best when i attempt the papers. goddamnit. i better get to work now. hold on, i should check my timetable first. i guess im self declaring a holiday for me tomorrow. tralala.
im tired. and when im tired. my mind starts to wander. the weather's cool. and i get emo during cooler weathers. which is bad.
alright, its time to do some econs.
(Monday, September 11, 2006 / 9:27 pm)
Can u ever imagine your world falling apart when someone who has always been there for u, who has been a chapter of your life, who has brighten up your darkest moments, who has educated you with the right morals, who has been lying next to you every night, who has been your emotional support, who has been the one to fall back on in times of despair, who has been the one taking care of you all the time, who has been watching you grow up, who has been taking care of you whenever you fall sick, who has been your childhood playmate, who has been the one telling you about her stories, who has been the one who cooks for you, who has been the one whom you can depend on at the end of the day, who has been dreaming of you and vice versa, who has been shielding you from your mom whenever u get reprimanded, who has been the one waking you up every morning, who has been the one preparing meals for you, who has been the one leaving you with those fond childhood memories which is priceless, who has been the one who caused you so much misery when she left, who has been the one who made you cried days and nights even after her departure, who has been a figure in your life who can never be erased from your mind, who has been the one who spent eight years of her life with you, who has been the one who saw you growing up from a baby to when you were primary two, who has been the one who influenced you to eat veggies for eight years, who has been the figure you have looked up to since young, who has ever been of more importance than anyone else in the world?
i miss my maid, my auntie.
( / 9:17 pm)
hey. whats wrong with the world man.
thank you for parting my lips, when i couldnt breathe. thank you for loving me.
( / 7:20 pm)
LOL. got this from shang's blog. super funnny(: but sweet!
( / 6:52 pm)
Omg. so touching(;
( / 4:55 pm)
hello blog. today's 11th September 2006. which is five years after the 9/11 catastrophe which happened in the United States of America.
alright, i guess this whole blog's gonna be on the overview of the incident and what we're doing five years later. basically, im trying to read up more and gain more insight pertaining to terrorism which has a significant impact on our lives since we're STILL exposed to the terrors of terrorism. so if ure not interested, kindly shift your cursor up to the top right hand corner where u see this cross, and please click it.
*United Airlines Flight 175, a Boeing 767-222[4], crashed into the South Tower at 9:02:59 a.m. local time, an event covered live by television broadcasters from around the world who had their cameras trained on the buildings after the earlier crash.
*American Airlines Flight 77, a Boeing 757-223[5], crashed into the Pentagon at 9:37:46 a.m. local time (13:37:46 UTC). *United Airlines Flight 93, a Boeing 757-222[6], crashed in a field in southwest Pennsylvania just outside of Shanksville, about 150 miles (240 km) northwest of Washington, D.C., at 10:03:11 a.m. local time (14:03:11 UTC), with parts and debris found up to eight miles away. The crash in Pennsylvania is believed to have resulted from the hijackers either deliberately crashing the aircraft or losing control of it as they fought with the passengers.
*no one onboard any of the above hijacked planes survived
*2,973 people killed, including 246 on the four planes, 2,602 in New York City in the towers and on the ground, and 125 at the Pentagon
*As the suburbs around New York City learned of the destruction so close to home, many schools closed for the day, evacuated, or were locked down.
*Other school districts shielded students from watching television because many of their parents held jobs in the World Trade Center towers.
THE HIJACKERS *Nineteen men boarded the four planes, five on each, except for United Airlines Flight 93, which had four hijackers
*Even though all were Muslims, it is reported that six of the hijackers went to Las Vegas and drank alcohol, gambled, and paid for lap dances, even though sharia (Islamic law) forbids the consumption of alcohol and adultery
*Most of the attackers were educated and came from well-to-do backgrounds
MOTIVE(the part where i was ignorant of before visiting wikipedia)
*the September 11th attacks were consistent with the mission statement of al-Qaeda by Osama Bin Laden
*The fatwa lists three "crimes and sins" committed by the Americans: 1. U.S. support of Israel. 2. U.S. military occupation of the Arabian Peninsula. 3. U.S. aggression against the Iraqi people.
*The fatwa states that the United States: 1. Plunders the resources of the Arabian Peninsula. 2. Dictates policy to the rulers of those countries. 3. Supports abusive regimes and monarchies in the Middle East, thereby oppressing their people. 4. Has military bases and installations upon the Arabian Peninsula, which violates the Muslim holy land, in order to threaten neighboring Muslim countries. 5. Intends thereby to create disunion between Muslim states, thus weakening them as a political force. 6. Supports Israel, and wishes to divert international attention from (and tacitly maintain) the occupation of Palestine.
*Bin Laden believes that it is his duty as a Muslim to establish a caliphate in the Middle East because he thinks that vast majority of governments in the Middle East are apostate governments which means that these governments' collective religiosity does not meet bin Laden's standard of Muslim piety
*Arising directly from these beliefs, bin Laden designed a strategy of attacking the United States in order to establish this caliphate(title for the Islamic leader of the community of Islam)
*bin Laden designed the attacks of 9/11 to cause the U.S. to increase its military and cultural presence in the Middle East
*Bin Laden believes that once Muslim citizens of the Middle East confront the evils of a non-Muslim government, one that is not a caliphate, a popular social and political movement will catalyze around the desire for very conservative and zealous Muslim governments in the Middle East
*He hoped these attacks would provoke a visceral emotional response from the government and citizens of the United States
*he was attempting to ensure that Muslim citizens in the Middle East would react as violently as possible to an increase in U.S. involvement in their region
EFFECTS *Within the United States, President Bush created the Department of Homeland Security, representing the largest restructuring of the U.S. government in contemporary history.
Five years after the September 11 attacks, governments have invested billions of dollars to strengthen their anti-terrorist defenses, and tighter security checks have become a routine part of daily life around the world.
But increased awareness has arguably been matched by a rising threat, as a more diffuse and elusive al Qaeda has mobilized recruits among disaffected young Muslims in the heart of Western societies.
Al Qaeda's 2001 suicide hijackings killed 2,992 people and ushered in an age of attacks designed not just for shock and fear -- like those carried out by many traditional guerrilla groups -- but to kill vast numbers of people.
Five years on, which areas of the infrastructure are still vulnerable?
"Nearly all of them," said Dan Inbar, head of Washington- and Israeli-based consultancy Homeland Security Research.
"In our eyes, a (shipping) container is a 3-tonne-payload guided missile which for 2,000 bucks you can send from Jakarta to the heart of New York, London or wherever.
"You just have to put 3 tonnes of fertilizer mix to have the effect of 15 tonnes of TNT. I don't tell you anything which the bad guys don't know."
Inbar is also scathing about what he sees as a lack of progress since September 11 in aviation security, with continued over-reliance on old-fashioned metal detector gateways.
"A terrorist doesn't need to have a metal weapon. He can use a plastic knife. He can go into an aircraft, break a glass and make a knife out of the glass. He can break a Coca-Cola can and make a knife out of it."
A metal detector costs less than $10,000 to buy, but $1 million in wages to operate over a six- to seven-year life, Inbar said.
"All the metal detectors you have around are actually an aspirin for a cancer patient, and a very expensive one."
British police announced last month they had foiled a major plot to blow up airliners in mid-flight over the Atlantic by smuggling liquid explosives on board.
While al Qaeda was known to have plotted similar attacks as far back as 1995, there is still no widely available system at international airports to detect explosives in liquid form.
TERRORIST BEHAVIOR?
Laviv specializes in abnormal behavior analysis, which enables computers to spot subtle physical characteristics that might betray a possible terrorist.
"This is not the profiling of ... Muslim people or black people. ... It's nothing to do with where you were born or what is your color," Laviv said in a telephone interview.
"It's got a lot to do with how nervous are you, what is your body temperature, what is the speed of your rapid eye movement, the quickness of your speech and other behavioral attributes."
The technology is central to a European Union anti-hijack project that would place video and audio sensors throughout an aircraft cabin to minutely observe passengers' behavior.
Laviv believes that within six to 10 years the system could be deployed not only on planes but in airports and other public buildings such as train stations.
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(Sunday, September 10, 2006 / 11:01 pm)
hey.
guess what.
everyone knows this but i just wanna say that..
SCHOOL IS STARTING TOMORROW!!! not again! sept hols wasnt really very productive but i guess i got quite a good break since i've been slacking for half of the hols. lol, i wish to have more self declared holidays when sch reopens but i) im afraid of my naggy sis and mom and ii) they might revise stuff during lectures and i dont wanna miss that cos i cant be bothered to read up on all the notes and stuff again.
hmm. what a tough choice. lol, shall try to go sch early tmr. im afraid i cant pull myself out of bed. anyway theres this nice song which im gonna introduce to u. its I STILL BELIEVE by lea salonga(yeah! my all time favourite) and claire moore. this is the first female duet song i ever heard i guess? hahaa. oops. a bit sua gu but whatever. its nice.
these days, i feel like a song downloader. ppl come asking me for songs and i try to send them despite of the lousy connection i have. if i dont have the songs, the super nice me would actually go and illegally downloadthe songs for them. oops, no political figures would actually view this blog right. lol.
hmm, i gotta plan my schedule already! my tuition mates namely hongsheng and shuwei are hardcore muggers. esp hs who sleeps at 4am so as to study. he redid his 5.1-5.5 trigo and all his summation + method of differences tutorials. OMFG. how can i ever outdo these muggers! tralala. im still quite contented now. hopefully i'll continue to mug when sch reopens since choir has come to a halt excluding those tentative sg idol practs.
OMG. i seriously cant wait for promos to come and i'll get over it and weehee(; falala.
but on the other hand, i dont wanna be so unprepared that i feel so shitty when i sit for the papers knowing that i havent study hard enough and i didnt put my best in it. damn. alright.
hoped i motivated you guys to study too(; seeya.
( / 12:56 pm)
hol·i·day (hl-d) KEY
NOUN:
1. A day free from work that one may spend at leisure, especially a day on which custom or the law dictates a halting of general business activity to commemorate or celebrate a particular event. 2. A religious feast day; a holy day. 3. (Chiefly British) A vacation. Often used in the phrase on holiday.
SEE. by mugging during the holidays, we're doing INJUSTICE(i got the spelling right this time ha, fee) to the word HOLIDAY. omfg. rah, alright. credits to iqbal who inspired me to have such an entry.
unproductive hols. ha.
(Saturday, September 09, 2006 / 2:51 am)
OMG. im in love with her la! its like her voice, her facial expressions, just everything about her is super charismatic esp when she hit her C with her speaking voice.
omg. my new idol!
im in love with LEA SALONGA! omgggg.
sigh, she inspires me to take up voice lesson but come to think of it, i've already allowed my piano lessons to come to a halt because i cant cope with studies and choir. if i go for voice lessons, wouldnt it be worse? rah. but i've gotta say, shes super good.(;
OMFG.
if i lay here, if i just lay here, would u lie with me and just forget the world?
(Friday, September 08, 2006 / 10:29 pm)
i love this chilly little weather.
having a warm cup of coffee beside me, and listen to emo songs like hero & why cant i makes me feel even worse. ahhaha. alright la.
i just wanted to post this up.
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it So tell me Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
tata(;
( / 8:10 pm)
its FUCCCKKKKING cold. not even in the middle of the night. its just 8.05pm! what the hell's wrong with this freaking weather. Do all people who resides at the 27th storey beside the sea encounter such frost-biting weather. scumbag.
lol.
its so UN-me to cuss. must be due to the music i was listening to a moment ago. fucking hard core rock music. muahahahhahaha. screaming all the way man. oh man, its been such a long time since i havent been emo. damn. its really cold. like 22degrees i guess. rahkao.
lol.
i wanna go to the airpork to study(:
( / 8:01 pm)
There are only four questions and if you see them > >>> > >all before > >>> > >finishing, > >>> > >you will not have honest results. Go down slowly > >>> > >and do each exercise > >>> > >as you > >>> > >scroll down. Don't look ahead. Get pencil and > >>> > >paper to write your > >>> > >answers as you go along. You will need it at the > >>> > >end. This is an > >>> > >honest > >>> > >questionnaire which will tell you a lot about your > >>> > >true self. Give an > >>> > >answer for each item.
> >>> > >Put the following 5 animals in the order of your > >>> > >preference. Cow Tiger > >>> > >Sheep Horse Pig
Write one word that describes each one of the > >>> > >following: > >>> > > > >>> > >Dog > >>> > > > >>> > >Cat > >>> > > > >>> > >Rat > >>> > > > >>> > >Coffee > >>> > > > >>> > >Sea
Think of someone (who also knows you and is > >>> > >important to you) that you > >>> > >can relate them to the following colours (do not > >>> > >repeat your answer > >>> > >twice. > >>> > >Name just one person for each colour.) Yellow > >>> > >Orange Red White Green
Finally, write down your favourite number and your > >>> > >favourite day of the > >>> > >week.......................
Look at the interpretations below: (but first > >>> > >before continuing, > >>> > >repeat > >>> > >your wish.)
This will define your priorities in your life. > >>> > > > >>> > >Cow Signifies CAREER > >>> > > > >>> > >Tiger Signifies PRIDE > >>> > > > >>> > >Sheep Signifies LOVE > >>> > > > >>> > >Horse Signifies FAMILY > >>> > > > >>> > >Pig Signifies > >>>MONEY
Your description of dog implies your own > >>> > >personality. > >>> > >Your description of cat implies the personality of > >>> > >your partner. Your > >>> > >description of rat implies the personality of your > >>> > >enemies. Your > >>> > >description of coffee is how you interpret sex. > >>> > >Your description of > >>> > >the > >>> > >sea implies your own life.
Yellow: Someone you will never forget > >>> > > > >>> > >Orange: Someone you consider your true friend > >>> > > > >>> > >Red: Someone that you really love > >>> > > > >>> > >White: Your twin soul > >>> > > > >>> > >Green: Someone that you will remember for the rest > >>> > >of your life
( / 4:46 pm)
Ellen Makes a Date with Oscar
Thu Sep 07, 9:32 PM ET
The Academy is once again looking to the small screen to lead the silver screen into the spotlight.
Ellen DeGeneres has been tapped to host the 79th Academy Awards next year, marking the third year in a row that the Academy of Motion Picture Arts & Sciences has gone with a celebrity whose contribution to the tube has so far outweighed his or her impact on celluloid. The ceremony will be held Feb. 27 at the Kodak Theater in Hollywood.
"When [telecast producer] Laura Ziskin called, I was thrilled," DeGeneres said in a statement. "There's two things I've always wanted to do in my life. One is to host the Oscars. The second is to get a call from Laura Ziskin. You can imagine that day's diary entry."
And apparently Ziskin was looking forward to making that call.
"Ellen DeGeneres was born to host the Academy Awards," she said.
"There is no more challenging hosting job in show business. It requires someone who can keep the show alive and fresh and moving, as well as someone who is a flat-out great entertainer. Ellen completely fits the bill. I can already tell she is going to set the bar very high for herself and therefore for all of us involved in putting on the show. Now all we need is a lot of great movies."
There's always a catch.
The host of The Ellen DeGeneres Show, which has won 15 Daytime Emmys during its four years on the air, has hosted the Primetime Emmy Awards twice, the first time coming in 2001 right after 9-11, and the other in 2004.
Critics applauded her 2001 effort, calling it pitch-perfect. Referring to the terrorists behind the Sept. 11, 2001, attacks, she said: "They can't take away our creativity, our striving for excellence, our joy. Only network executives can do that."
DeGeneres' 2004 outing on CBS attracted 18.7 million viewers, a 36 percent leap in viewership from the previous year, which was one of the lowest rated telecasts since ratings information became available.
"She just sparkles," Academy President Sid Ganis said.
"She is such a pleasure to watch. Her wit cuts to the truth of things, but in a wonderfully warm-spirited way. I think she'll be a fantastic host for this show and we're extremely pleased that she's agreed to do it."
Jon Stewart hosted the Oscars this year, scoring unspectacular ratings (38.9 million viewers, down from 2005) but good reviews. The Academy had been hoping that the head of The Daily Show brain trust would attract a more youthful audience. Similar to what the Academy intended to do by calling upon Chris Rock in 2004, only without Rock's "It's all about me" approach.
The Daily Show benefited by Stewart's understated, intelligent approach to Hollywood's biggest night, however. The Comedy Central show pulled in 100,000 more viewers than usual each night during the week after Stewart's hosting gig.
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i love him but when the night is over; he is gone the river's just a river. without him, the world around me changes; the trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of stranger.
i love him but everyday im learning; all my life i've only been pretending. without me his world will go turning, a one thats full of happiness that i have never known.
i love him; i love him; i love him.. but only on my own.
im so in love with lea salonga' ON MY OWN. not bad right, i typed this out when shes singing. not copy and paste from some lyrics page. mm, more sincerity in showing that i really like this song. the lyrics' just so touching.
alright. shall get ready for tuition. mm, i hope i dont doze off.
( / 12:29 am)
Tyra Banks She has graced the cover of many a magazine and appeared in those 'Got Milk?' ads (complete with a milk mustache), and now she's cultivating a film and TV career. Tyra Banks sounds more like a multitasking Gemini than a Sagittarius -- this woman's face is everywhere! But under all those endorsements and designer duds, who is the real Tyra Banks?
Birth Details: December 4, 1973 Los Angeles, California
Banks's Sagittarius Sun probably influenced her choice of career from the beginning. Instead of going to college, she signed up with Elite modeling agency and went off to Paris for a year. Those born under this sign love to travel, and they worship their freedom. Banks is no exception; she's been willing to change agencies and sponsors in order to keep doing what she wants. She is disarmingly happy, but she can also be a bit tactless when it comes to saying what's on her mind.
With her Mercury in Scorpio, Banks is not one for small talk. She likes to dig deep and probe for the true meanings of things. Banks traveled to Costa Rica in order to see for herself and bring the world's attention to the ecological plight of the rainforests. Despite the good that her efforts brought about, Banks could be struggling with the thought that she's not an intellectual: In her chart, her Mercury lags far behind the Sun, so she might not give herself enough credit in the brains department. Her fans know that there must be something there, though; otherwise she wouldn't have reached the top of her chosen profession.
Banks's Venus in Capricorn could be the reason behind the dearth of activity in her dating department. She's not one to follow her heart, and she seems to be waiting for the right thing to come along. Her status is important, and if she can't find a man to proudly display on her arm, she may not want one at all.
Anyone who describes Banks as anything less than a go-getter is dead wrong. Indeed, she created and hosts the hit show America's Next Top Model. Her Mars in Aries assures her adoring public that she's always going to be on the move. It's her way or the highway, and nothing's going to stop her from getting what she wants -- right now. Her Mars opposite Uranus adds a further edge to her personality. She's a radical who doesn't care what others think; she just wants things done her way.
Tyra Banks is definitely good at flash: She has five cardinal planets in her chart, which means she's full of energy when it comes to starting things. The only trouble is, she may not stick around to see some things through to the end -- but it doesn't look like that quality is hampering her life much so far.
(Thursday, September 07, 2006 / 9:57 pm)
LOL. cant believe dear fee fee actually read my blog just now when i just posted the earlier entry about 10mins ago. so she worriedly talked to me on msn, pasted what i blogged about my "good" friend. and asked anxiously,
IS IT ME?
aww. that suddenly brought up memories with fee, mich, ali, rongy, mini and yilin in tk. sigh. noo la, why would i ever detest my dearest fee feee, hahaha im sure shes gonna get goosebumps reading this.
dont worry la, to me u'll always be that special somebody i will look for WHEN.. (i) i wanna eat instant noodles at someone's house and still have to cook it by myself (ii) i wanna go for sleepovers and make layouts until the middle of the night (iii) i wanna learn more about the photoshop or paintshoppro techniques (iv) i wanna talk about geog and let the geog pro teach me everything about geog (v) i wanna excite someone about how tanned i am and how ghastly white she is (vi) i wanna take cab (HAHA) (vii) i wanna sing the latest english songs and create cool lyrics for those songs (viii) i wanna buy CDs and share them with someone
u know what. the list goes on. hahaha seriously. but i just forgot whats after viii. oops. im not into roman numerals. cant believe i wanted to be an archaeologist a few years back. haha. alright, shall go study. mathhhhh. yay did i just stress the pignose dawn? hahahhaa. im sure her nose will do the sniff sniff and i want food action when she reads this. HAHAHA.
( / 9:35 pm)
Hello again. i blog almost everyday har, what a faithful little blogger.
anyway, i was just thinking about a friend. mm, it was like ure still quite good friends for a period of time. and slowly, she disappeared from your side and transformed into another figure. uhha. unfortunately, i dont like the new transformation. i think i'll encounter difficulty in approaching her like what we used to. im feeling a bit sad about that, but oh well, people do change. and maybe i did too.
seriously, that dont feel good. sigh. why must there be external influences. muahaha. this reminds me of econs, positive and negative externalities. dang. econs. yes, i only revised super position, circular motion, waves, phy quantities and units, a bit of kinematics and forces this hol.
HOW SCREWED can i get. and just now from tuition, heard from hongsheng that theres only 25 or 26 days to promos. MUMMY!!! shitt. im so gonna screw up my math. wait, i dont want to get 30marks for math again. nooooooo. see, im still procrastinating here. instead of putting my words into action. lol. shit, no more neopets.
sorry this has been really random. just wanted to express my frustratedness over the good friend once i used to have. sigh. we just dont click that much now. im sad);
( / 2:09 am)
hello blog.
ah. the exact way i do to my private blog. its so good and healthy to blog. i wont commit suicide or whatever. haha okay not to that extent. i feel a tweeny bit better after blogging at my sanctuary.
sigh.
things are not really not happening according to the way u want it to be. no wait, dont think crookedly, its not what ure thinking about. something else i need to get off my chest. but probably not here. too public. too exposed.
anyway enough of being emo. just now about an hr ago, i actually manage to mug for half an hr at my dining table. haha instead of my study. yes, its a feat! i actually mug for half an hr without doing anything else except for singing my heart out and scribbling random physics formulas stuck in my puny brain.
theres geog supp tmr. im bored. tired. dont feel lk going. but how can i pangseh the rest and endanger my geog revision. gosh damn drat it. i only started revision for physics. how shite can i get.
oh les miserables songs are pretty nice. downloaded the songs and checked out the lyrics. mmhmm.
Lea Salonga - On My Own
to view video. no more scary shit. no worries. check out how Lea Salonga sings this part. its damn good. i just love filipino singers. they're good man. novo's a good eg. lea just further reinforces this fact.
the lyrics is really good too.
And now I'm all alone again, Nowhere to turn, no one to go to. Without a home, without a friend, Without a face to say hello to. And now the night is near, Now I can make believe he's here.
Sometimes I walk alone at night When everybody else is sleeping. I think of him, and then I'm happy With the company I'm keeping. The city goes to bed, And I can live inside my head.
On my own, Pretending he's beside me. All alone, I walk with him till morning. Without him, I feel his arms around me, And when I lose my way I close my eyes And he has found me.
In the rain, The pavement shines like silver. All the lights Are misty in the river. In the darkness, The trees are full of starlight, And all I see is him and me for ever and forever.
And I know It's only in my mind, That I'm talking to myself And not to him. And although I know that he is blind, Still I say, There's a way for us.
I love him, But when the night is over, He is gone, The river's just a river. Without him, The world around me changes. The trees are bare and everywhere The streets are full of strangers.
I love him, But every day I'm learning, All my life, I've only been pretending! Without me, His world will go on turning, A world that's full of happiness That I have never known!
I love him... I love him... I love him... But only on my own...
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I Dreamed A Dream
There was a time when men were kind, And their voices were soft, And their words inviting. There was a time when love was blind, And the world was a song, And the song was exciting. There was a time when it all went wrong...
I dreamed a dream in time gone by, When hope was high and life, worth living. I dreamed that love would never die, I dreamed that God would be forgiving. Then I was young and unafraid, And dreams were made and used and wasted. There was no ransom to be paid, No song unsung, no wine, untasted.
But the tigers come at night, With their voices soft as thunder, As they tear your hope apart, And they turn your dream to shame.
He slept a summer by my side, He filled my days with endless wonder... He took my childhood in his stride, But he was gone when autumn came!
And still I dream he'll come to me, That we will live the years together, But there are dreams that cannot be, And there are storms we cannot weather!
I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living, So different now from what it seemed... Now life has killed the dream I dreamed...
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One Day More
okay the lyrics too long. reckoned u might not be interested too. haha.
(Wednesday, September 06, 2006 / 9:21 pm)
JONATHAN's SO SEXY.
did u watch idol just now? did u hear his chasing cars? did u fall in love with his voice straight away?
okay. if the ans for the above is YES. u know u just gotta vote for him straightaway, yes no more hesitiation. i mean NOOOWWWWW!
omg.
i love that comment of dick's.
If you continue singing like this, u'll win the competition.
i have to say that this season was a lot better than the prev. i hope jonathan gets into the finals, so that i get to see him for the finals! OMGGGGG.
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on a sidenote. paul is like kns. i was initially still supportive of him for his first song. not that bad. but when he sang his second song, Adam Sandler's i wanna grow old with u.
HE SOUNDED LIKE SHIT.
he made the song sound as if he's singing to kids central. i bet his girlfriend, if he's not gay, will get turn off by that song. he looked like another joakim(no offence, but his actions were just so joakim-ish)
OMG.
i hope he gets out the next round.
Plus, whats wrong with ken. he's praising everyone today.
( / 1:01 am)
mm. did i mention that i hate nags or quarrels. i cant seem to curb that surge of emotions bursting within me whenever theres a quarrel going on. be it related to be or not. i'll experience this feeling of puking and my brain exploding whenever quarrels surface.
its unbearable. and my whole train of thoughts get disrupted. however, after every nag/quarrel, i'll reflect on what i have done that led to such a predicament.
then i start to ponder about my future. whereby one day, my mom wont be there to nag at me anymore. i guess when that day comes, i'll actually miss those nags im experiencing now. unbearable yet heartfelt. i believe she did feel very concerned about us before she actually nagged at us. nevertheless, whenever she nags, i'll just fish out my ipod from the bag and get ready for the anti-nag gear. i'll put those earphones into my ear and prevent myself from hearing her nag. i feel quite bad sometimes. but truth is, i really cant take it. my tolerance's level very high yet if someone was to nag or scold me, i'll just break down i suppose.
rah. i feel so bad. i cant imagine the day when my mom's gone.
(Tuesday, September 05, 2006 / 11:18 pm)
chubb
( / 10:18 pm)
Thank you for loving me BON JOVI
It's hard for me to say the things I want to say sometimes There's no one here but you and me And that broken old street light Lock the doors We'll leave the world outside All I've got to give to you Are these five words when I
Thank you for loving me For being my eyes When I couldn't see For parting my lips When I couldn't breathe Thank you for loving me Thank you for loving me
I never knew I had a dream Until that dream was you When I look into your eyes The sky's a different blue Cross my heart I wear no disguise If I tried, you'd make believe That you believed my lies
Thank you for loving me For being my eyes When I couldn't see For parting my lips When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me Thank you for loving me
You pick me up when I fall down You ring the bell before they count me out If I was drowning you would part the sea And risk your own life to rescue me
Lock the doors We'll leave the world outside All I've got to give to you Are these five words when I
Thank you for loving me For being my eyes When I couldn't see For parting my lips When I couldn't breathe Thank you for loving me Thank you for loving me
When I couldn't fly Oh, you gave me wings You parted my lips When I couldn't breathe Thank you for loving me Thank you for loving me Thank you for loving me, For loving me if only i could find someone like this.
( / 9:47 pm)
Sometimes in life you feel the fight is over And it seems as though the writing’s on the wall Superstar you’ve finally made it But once your picture becomes tainted It’s what they call the rise & fall
I always said that I was gonna make it Now it’s plain for everyone to see But this game I’m in don’t take no prisoners Just casualties I know that everything is gonna change Even the friends I knew before may go But this dream is the life I’ve been searching for Started believing that I was the greatest My life was never gonna be the same ‘cos with the money came a different status That’s when things changed Now I’m too concerned with all the things I own Blinded by all the pretty girls I see I’m beginning to loose my integrity
I never used to be a troublemaker Now I don’t even wanna please the fans No autographs, no interviews, no pictures Endless demands Gave in to vices that were clearly wrong The types that seemed to make me feel so right But some things you may find can take over your life Burnt all my bridges now I’ve run out of places And there’s nowhere left for me to turn Been caught in compromising situations I should have learned From all those times I didn’t walk away When I knew that it was best to go Is it too late to show you the shape of my heart?
( / 9:33 pm)
I feel like a useless shit bag now.
nothing i've done today is right.
i made shuwei angry.
i created a layout. for what? to kill boredom.
i tried doing physics i got stuck.
i actually gave up.
i played neopets.
i messed up my own dinner, maggimee, by adding too much water.
im too lazy to go down to get food.
i dont feel like moving at all.
i feel like a potato couch just not watching the telly only.
IMPORTANT: dont watch it when ur parents are around. its only meant for the young at heart, if u get what i mean(:
p/s: sorry shuwei.
( / 7:03 pm)
WEEHEE. i got so bored of doing work or just simply doing anything that i actually laughed to myself silently. muaha. alright. then i msged that guai lan and seek help from him. hoho. as usual, he was trying to convince me to do some work ie highlighting econs notes. but u know what? I GOT SO BORED. that i figured i should do what i enjoy the most.
since the intellectual doesnt own a digi cam, i whipped out my handy green LG phone and strolled to my corridor. snapped a few shots and made sure that no one was roaming around the empty corridor. lol. the wind was so STRONG. felt so at ease. but quickly returned home just in case someone spots me taking pics of myself.
lol. alright i just discovered my newest hobby which i can do when im bored alone at home.
cheers(;
so hows my new layout. hoha. i love that hair. makes me look like some jap if i didnt crop out the bottom part of my shirt. lol.
im being randyrandom.
enjoy those cool pics at the bottom. weeha!
MY LOVELY PICTURES!
the new gorillaz WMP thingy i just dled. so cute!
weehee. my favourite wallpaper(;
my new comforter bedsheet. dont it just remind u of childhood memories.
CHECK OUT THE HUGE WIND. i swore my head was on the verge of flying away.
that restricted view of the sea at my corridor.
check out that maple leaf thingy. weehee(;
woohoo. dont u just love it(;
that triple deck mint chocolate my sis fren bought from aussie which i adore(:
some random shot i took a long time ago. okay maybe not that long. a week? or maybe two. hmm.
and there u go. how can u ever miss out on the intellectual!!
( / 2:15 am)
GOING UNDER Evanescence
now i will tell you what i've done for you 50 thousand tears i've cried screaming deceiving and bleeding for you and you still won't hear me don't want your hand this time i'll save myself maybe i'll wake up for once not tormented daily defeated by you just when i thought i'd reached the bottom i'm dying again
i'm going under drowning in you i'm falling forever i've got to break through i'm going under
blurring and stirring the truth and the lies so i don't know what's real and what's not always confusing the thoughts in my head so i can't trust myself anymore i'm dying again
so go on and scream scream at me i'm so far away i won't be broken again i've got to breathe i can't keep going under
My Immortal Evanescence I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me By your resonating light Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind Your face, it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me
im so tired. i never felt this way before. i never thought it would be this way before. i never give such a situation a thought before. everything's different from expected. im going under. i wanna breakthrough. im GOING UNDER. i NEED TO BREAKTHROUGH.
im going under.
i need that source of motivation.
that spark.
that everything everyone has been hoping for.
i wanna escape from reality.
i wanna sink into my own world of fantasy.
i wanna be somebody else.
i dont wanna be me.
im going under. for the first time, i actually checked out evanescence lyrics and they make sense to me(;
(Monday, September 04, 2006 / 9:51 pm)
i want to follow my heart. i want to know what im thinking about 24/7. i questioned myself, and then my heart and here i am now. at the cross-roads.
tell me what to do.
dont question this entry. i must be getting cranky after mugging physics and neopets.
im stuck at the crossroads. i dont know how to take a step forward.
( / 1:43 am)
hello blog. its been such a long time since i doodled on my ranting ground.
but a rant is definitely necessary before every major examination.
i feel do mentally emotionally drained. im tired. i want a break. and i've been taking a break for the past few days already. shouldnt that suffice!? noooo. im in need of a longer break. i know nuts about my studies. im not putting in the effort i should put in. i dont want to take promos and realise that i didnt do my best. and because of that, i retain or whatever. no, i dont wanna take R papers in the dec holidays either. i dont want i dont want i dont want. here i am ranting away, and actually i know i can be mugging away. but no. my mind tells me that hey ure tired. take a break. but i know thats wrong. that shouldnt be the case. everyone's mugging. why arent u. waiiiitttttt.
tmr or today is the start of the sept hols. we must get the tone right, and for that im very glad that iqbal is the best motivator for me to do my work. he's always encouraging me to do this work, do that and complete my agenda and go ahead with my schedule. on the other hand, oliver's also always there. my emotional support. then i have shuwei who's there to scare me about promos ahha cos she's always doing 200times more work than what im doing. dawn, whos constantly frustrated abt the fact that time's running out, inevitably scaring me. yuting who thinks shes dumb but shes not and her studying spirit greatly spurs me on. huping whos so smart already yet he's still so kind to all of us when it comes to studying. im so grateful for having such nice and caring friends. thank you people. haha. THANK YOU. the list never ends. its just that. i dont know. i feel like studying now. yet i feel like sleeping cos its getting late. my gosh.
byebye.
(Sunday, September 03, 2006 / 8:19 pm)
i feel so american-ish now. it must be the fault of the ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS. was just listening to their song. and suddenly, 2 movies came to my mind.
SLEEPLESS IN SEATTLE
THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA
i know they're TOTALLY different movies. but hold on, dont u think that theres something special about both movies. they both show us the glamour of AMERICA. i love them both. i... i... im at a loss of words!
i feel like endorsing myself in the paris mood now. the pretty street lights. the friendly american citizens. the scene where shit, whats that girl's name. is it reese witherspoon? i cant remember. the female lead in the car, listening to the night radio prog. hearing the deejay talking. and the male lead, tom hanks? he was with his son and they were looking at fireworks, counting down to the new year, which is inevitably mrs chng who who's oops. yuting's bday. my gosh. SOOOO romantic.
okay. shes gonna slaughter me. no she wont. ahhaha cos shes so pretty and nice and shes such a america top model wannabe. i dont feel like blogging anymore. i wanna go america right this moment.
fly me to the moon and drop me at america.
(Friday, September 01, 2006 / 9:34 am)
Donald to Carolyn: You're Fired! Thursday August 31 3:40 PM ET
By Gina Serpe
Carolyn Kepcher's business how-to book covered how to handle a difficult boss. Now it's time for a rewrite.
Donald Trump has turned on one of his own, giving the axe to his longtime boardroom sidekick and Apprentice costar amid a newspaper report that TV fame had gone to her head.
"Mr. Trump wishes Carolyn the best,"
the real estate mogul's rep, Jim Dowd, told E! News, confirming the firing.
Kepcher had run two of Trump's golf courses and was a longtime fixture at the Trump Organization; more prominently, she had served as Trump's right-hand woman since NBC launched The Apprentice in 2004.
According to the New York Post, Kepcher was given the boot after Trump became frustrated by her outside projects.
"She became a prima donna,"
a presumably close, unnamed "insider" told the newspaper.
"She was giving speeches for $25,000 and doing endorsements."
The 36-year-old mother of two, who oversaw the Trump National Golf Club in Briarcliff, New York, as well as a course in New Jersey, parlayed her Apprentice fame into a book deal. Carolyn 101: Business Lessons from The Apprentice's Straight Shooter became a bestseller, which led to the boardroom maven landing an agent at ICM and fielding offers for TV and book deals, along with speaking engagements and endorsements.
Kepcher's termination will have no affect on production of The Apprentice. She was not involved in the upcoming sixth season, which was set in Los Angeles and has finished shooting.
Proving nepotism is alive and kicking, Trump earlier tapped daughter Ivanka to take over as the reality show's requisite female sidekick, with Donald Trump Jr. chosen to fill-in for the other longtime Apprentice lackey, George Ross.
