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HA HEY HO!

today's quite a high day for me. OOHLALA. yes, i went out at like 12+ to BUGIS to get some box stuff for our dearest ALTO SENIORS today cos dawn and i were baking brownies/cookies for them. And oh boy, only 1/3 of the altos turned up 'cos johnnie, sharon, cheryl and sindhu couldnt make it. ):

Its kind of dumb cos from bayshore which is sort of beside siglap south CC, i went to bugis, to potong pasir and from there i returned to siglap south cc again. REETARDED. making a hell big loop at the north-eastern and eastern part of singapore!

YAY. and our product was quite successful. hope the seniors like our efforts(: although we only did it today. ahhaha. FAREWELL was pretty awesome i suppose? It was initially quite sian cos the turn up rate was HORRENDOUS. only like 40+ people turned up and 2/3 were the year2s. So the exco was quite worried if we should carry on with our games and forfeits and stuff. Fortunately, we decided to go with it since we already painstakingly planned it. And, i guess the games were the highlight of the day. the FORFEITS which we brainstormed for 2hrs on the phone stole the LIMELIGHT. hahahhaa. hope you guys enjoyed it.

FUNNY PART: yizha stupidly suggested licking 5 ears as one of the forfeits. in the end, he really tio the licking part. but when he came and lick mine, he sort of used his hands to cover and just pretended to lick our ears. scheming kitty cat! hahahhaa.

POOR hongsheng had to share a raw egg with weijie. oh i think its poor weijie indeed cos hongsheng was suppose to do a forfeit already.

Then nicholas almost or maybe he did broke johnnie's record of finishing COKE(gasy!) in 17seconds. the 330ml can kind.

Francesca picked a forfeit from the bag and she chose chia to do it with her. ahhaha. we kind of forced them to do it tgh. stupid marcus actually suggested that gan and i should demo the guy doing pushup over girl first. HAHA. super funny. the funnier part was when i heard from the rest that shuwei was shrieking/laughing her heads off. not bad, im quite honoured we made u laugh(:

And the last forfeit of the day, also one of the funniest, was when heli had to kiss jerrold's butt. HAHA, the penguin-gayboy jerrold immediately when to the push up position and stuck out his butt like he cant wait for heli to kiss it. HAHAHA. poor heli. she pretended to kiss in the end.

Then, we had our 70pax buffet while only like 40+ ppl turned up. so zha and i had to go to the coffeeshop to buy 35 styrofoam lunchboxes and dabaoed all the remaining food from the buffet. i brought home 3 packets! ahhaha.

After that, we watched some heartwarming videos from yeo and jgan. Ahhh, wonderful memories of ITALY(: and horny night. priscilla helped the altos clinched the 2nd spot lor(: ahhaha. thanks, although shes not reading this.

Tealight session beginned late this year. at 9pm and sscc was sposed to close at 11. hahaha, so only year2s could share their amazingly awesome experience in vj choir with us. i really teared when i heard zhou chu sharing about her first experience with mr kwei and stuff. really touching. thought i was being emo, then again, i looked left and saw dawn the percy pig tearing too. ahh. emo choir girls. I was wondering what if there was time left for the year1s to share too before the session beginned. Kind of afraid yet excited. 'cos im afraid i will stutter and stuff and not know what to share with the rest. but when the year2s started telling us everything about how they felt and suddenly, omg, i cant wait to share and thank our seniors for really being there for the first half of the year.

To our dear alto seniors, although we havent really been mixing THAT much with you guys. BUT BUT i think its really not gonna be that complete without your presence. WE WILL MISS YOU GUYS((: and thanks alot jiejun for everything you've done for us. ahhahaha, although i didnt think you gave us a lot of voice tests this year. i only recalled hear my prayer and zhuliguan, maybe u gave more last year. Ahh. emo moments yet again.(: but i like!

KITTY CAT. okay, random. ahhaha.

Hmm, i really cant wait for our turn to come next year although i know i wont be able to part with vj choir. its like...

Q:HELLO. why do i go to school?
A:CHOIR!

Q:when i pon school, why do i still turn up in the afternoons?
A:CHOIR!

Q:If i werent a dsa to vj, will i go to jc?
A:POLY!

Q:why did i changed my mind when i didnt want to go to a jc choir or even go to a jc?
A:SOV 2005 which vj choir really impressed me with.

SO all in all, im really really really PROUD to be a member of vj choir. despite of our "supposedly-arrogant/stuckup" appearance that people think we have. NAH, its definitely not true!

I LOVE VJ CHOIR.

i got kind of sad when we sang no man is an island today. its sort of going to be the last time that the year ones are going to sing it with the year 2s.

and i really gotta thank the YEAR TWOS for coming down for farewell. It wouldnt have been that great without you guys and your participation in our lamo games!

YAY. i seriously love vjchoir. i guess i wouldnt turn up for lessons if there wasnt choir. Im just afraid of going for lessons for the second half of the year in 2007 when choir stops and its all about MUGGING. ah yes, im really not a mugger. i rather go to poly and do projects. i need HANDS ON stuff not mugging and graphic calculator shitty stuff. that again, i dont mean that my coolio s51 mates arent my friends. its just that im really trying to express my LOVE(yes may, this is called confession but not to you ONLY) for my dearest choir friends. whats life in vj w/o you guys.

This year has been absolutely wonderful with you people when we started chionging for ITALY/SOV/SCO/SGIDOL! omg. these feelings and memories will be forever imprinted on my mind. ahh, i better stop blogging such hardcore emo stuff. wait u tear infront of ur laptop. hahaha kidding. im not gonna be SUCH AN EMO KID anymore and focus more on my studies. THATS GONNA BE MY '07 NEWYEAR RESOLUTION. and ABSOLUTELY, learn from jj's advice about completing tutorials on time. Im not gonna be mean to foosibon(my "DEAREST" math tutor) and i will listen to GOHKELIANG physics tutorials! haha, the latter's kind of hard though. hahahhahahaha ooh lala. I LOVE VJ and DEFINITELY VJ CHOIR(:

YOU PEOPLE ROCK!
as much as i do, like DUH?!

yeahyeah. i love everyone, including YOU who's reading my fantastically long entry. if u managed to sustain to this last crapping bit, i love you LOADS AND LOADS!!!

thanks everyone, who know me/dont know me? i just love you(:

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My entry's supposed to be short and sweet but i cant help it this time already, michelle. the self proclaimed lover(:

Hey. Not exactly in a fun blogging mood right now. But today's kind of interesting, so yes! let me rejuvenate myself. okay, 3 seconds.

1, 2, 3..

AH YES! i feel better after inhaling fresh air. okay, today's movie outing consisted of yours truly(=D), jialing, novabelle, may, zha, wayne and xy! Ohho! once again, we went to arcade and i bishi-bashied as usual just to realise that the machine set super high standards. So i couldnt use 1 coin to advance to the 2nd last round sadly. Stopped after my 10th stage or something like that. Anyway, the para para queen, miss november, was sort-of "trashed" by parapara king today! LOL. you should look at how xy dances. hahaha.

Then, we caught our COOL chinese movie - Confession of Pain at tm gv. Havent been there for ages. Its kind of cool yes. But i just dont like chinese movies ending and their plot. Its always about those gangsters' society which i have no idea why novabelle likes. I still prefer heartwarming-romantic-comedies like THE HOLIDAY. YES(:

Went with the exco + the rest to tampines IKEA thereafter. Hmm, doesnt seem different from the other ikea at alexandra road. Urh, just that we(exco) felt quite bad for making the rest to walk with us throughout ikea while we were shopping for furniture. haha. SORRY!(:

Just had a 2hr+ conference with exco on the phone on our forfeits for tomorrow's games. Ah yes, should have entrusted such a heavy job to the adhoc. lol. we just arent that good at thinking of forfeits but any-o-how, we thought of 20 forfeits. LMAO right? yes. Guess what? zha suggested dumb forfeits like dipping your head into the toilet bowl, okay thats not worse, whats next? he brainstormed of another retarded one like digging the bi3 sai4 (nose shit) from someone's nose. DISGUSTING right? Yes, that's miss ong yizha. hahaha.

Ahha. yes, that's about it. I better keep my entries short and sweet like what mich says.

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Just when i thought i was nearing the top,
i found myself falling subconsciously to the bottom of the pit again.

HELLO!

i'm finally done with my blog layout. Just discovered a few nicer pictures that was snapped during the singapore idol period. muahaha. thanks to johnnie's wonderful camera snapshots and miss maymay's participation in the picture(:

Spent approximately 8hours on this layout alright. Sorry, still very noob after losing touch with coding and stuff for such a long time! Fortunately, miss november was there to help me just now. Too bad she's returning to cedar choir tmr so she has to sleep early. Ah well, if you're reading this, look at those dotted lines below! They're there all thanks to you!

Oh my god. I've just squandered my only free day - today AWAY just like this! 6 hours siming and 8 hours on the layout. LMAO. i'm just a bummer. Oh well, i promise to study hard during the first week when everyone's having Rs/Ogl-ing/Slacking/Mugging. ahahaha. rahrah, cant wait for A's to be over. one more year. i cant wait for my bday to arrive! like what shuwei said on the phone.

Talking about the conference just now, muahaaha. so retarded. 5 people talking for about an hour and i think we only spoke to each other for half an hour, 'cos the rest of the time we were doing our own stuff and making some random funny noises to the phone.

I'm still not very satisfied about how you guys are viewing my bags! RAH. how can u guys guess $39.90 for that NUM BAG! ): so saddening. i guess im gonna end up like fee soon if i dont have enough confidence in my bag. rofl. Ah yes and thanks oliver for saying that your new nike is nicer than mine. beauty lies in the eye of the beholder as i said(: oh and thanks for staying online till so late to view the entry. aha.

The remaining holi-days are gonna be so packed! I'm going with soooo many year zeros - JiaLing, November, Triplets and only one confirmed year one - yizha to tm to catch Confession of Pain tomorrow! HAHA. its a COOL chinese movie, yes! guess i only wanna watch it cos takeshi kaneiro is starring in it(: Then, will be joining exco in our shopping trip to TAMPINES IKEA to get stuff for choir room. Hope it will be uber cool, the new ikea i mean.

On Sat, altos are most probably preparing some gifts for our lovely seniors in the morning and probably popping off to siglap south cc for farewell. just in case you didnt know, there's gonna be farewell for our year2s!

FAREWELL "PARTY"
5pm - 9pm(thereabout)
Siglap South CC(our fav hangout)
30th December 2006

Yes there you go!

We ran out of function rooms at condos, haha so sscc was our last option. or it would have to be school i guess? Anyway, on sunday the whole big gang will be down at dawn's to COUNTDOWN! ooh lala. this year is uber cool. Its the first time im countdown-ing to xmas and newyear with my friends. HUALALA.

Enjoy the holidays now i guess? Otherwise its gonna be "Full-blast" mugging i suppose when school reopens? So yes, shuwei, RELAX(: you'll do just fine!

Finally, i think its over. I feel happy for myself.

Tata, i better try to sleep early. I've been sleeping at 4+am these few days. rah!

heyhey testing.

HELLO.

this post is super random.

TODAY is such a fun filled day. Gosh, i couldnt believe that i didnt wanna go out initially. 'cos these few days(because of carolling), i've been out early in the morning and returning home late at night like around 12+am. and thats why i've been missing out on my all time favourite aeroplane show 10pm every night. Plus, i've just spent another 15bucks on cabfare today. KILL ME, please.

While waiting for miss michelle to upload and edit the 171pics we took just now during our kaka outing, i shall blog about my xmas presents this year. Im so proud of them!

Hmm gotta say the r/s between my lousy phone cam and i is a love-hate one. Simply cos the quality of the picture sucks the most but i take like 2 minutes to upload 15pictures as they are super small in size.

Here you go:

The box of presents michelle gave each of us. So nice, she specially bought a box to contain the xmas gifts! Show u the horrendous items you can find in it!

A lovely waxy seabased thingy with CHUB pasted on a transparency inside. Apparently, it kind of failed so she had to use a toothpick at Newyorkx2 during dinnertime to adjust the names for everyone's.

The sexy undie she bought for me. Grr, mine's like the worst. i rather a thong like what the rest had received.

A yummylicious looking cookie which is the last present in the box from mich!

And this is from rongxin, if u've been to IKEA lately, you'll realise she bought the frame from IKEA and she designed the frames herself! looks uber cool especially the frames for the other kaka sisters like those which are covered with flowers on the borders or those that look like some cool garden scenery. Thanks rongy(;

This is from miss bimbo kokyilin. Cute little santa plus a nice pair or earrings hidden within it(:

A cool purple looking adidas water bottle from ALI! ahahaha. this is the 2nd bottle i received this xmas!

A lovely looking container which fee specially bought from IKEA too plus a Cool green tee she bought from DUBAI. that rich kid. lol.

Oh to sequel to ali's present she wrapped everything inside the bag(:

Then, in it, there's the LP zone musical tee and a taiwanese sweet thing plus 3 pairs of earrings! so sweet of her to give me all 4 gifts at one time! thanks ali the slutty bitch(:

Ohho and this is what my mom gave me for xmas this year. SO SURPRISING. she hasnt given me xmas gifts for ages!

so i gotta say, goodbye NIKE bottle which i bought around april this year with vivo and sj at parkway.

Also, thanks lydia for giving me this sweet starry earring for christmas(:

Look at the wonderful xmas cards i received this year. i Feel so LOVED(:

Aw, sadly, goodbye adidas bag! I will still use you though(; Just that your rival has sadly arrived. ahhaha, thanks chenxiuqi and sx for giving this to me as bday present last yr!

HELLO RIVAL. KAKA chipped in 100bucks to get this new urban male sling/tote for me. I paid 49bucks though. ahhaha, everyone said it was okay until when i got home, my sis who are the ANTI-NUM ppl started telling me that its too overrated and certainly not worth the price. DAMN. i dont wanna end up like fee who used the same bag but different design who currently doesnt like her bag anymore cos her bro thought it was some pasar malam bag worth 30bucks only. LOL.

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ENOUGH OF GIFTS. now lets move on to the wonderful KAKA outing today! for the first time this year i suppose, we have everyone in KAKA who turned up today!

Namely,

Da jie - Mini(:

Er jie - yours truly!

San jie / Da Mei - Michelle

Si mei(simei) - Rongy

Wu Mei - Fee!

Liu Mei - Yilin

Xiao Mei - ALI!

Fyi, the order of youngest to oldest is reversed thats why feb baby is ali and the dec baby, (ME and mini) are the eldest!

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Today, the bummer me, woke up at 130pm when im spose to meet kaka at 1pm. YUCKS. i hate myself for ALWAYS being late, but im seriously trying. haha. dreaded gg out cos it was pouring out there and i thought i had to buy all the xmas gifts before meeting up w kaka at marina(YET AGAIN, ive been there everyday for the past wk due to CAROLLING!). Luckily, mini didnt bring the presents so i guess i'll pass them the stuff nxt january(:

So i cabbed down to marina since it was raining yet again. Then, missed the supposedly yummy lunch at coffeeclub so i only joined them to exchange gifts at the cinema. After mini joined me, fee, rongy and mich later on, we went to shopped for our bdays gifts. Was gonna buy the red glossy nike bag that jialing wanted to buy already but i decided to look around first before buying. Didnt wanna buy anything on impulse cos i still think that red glossy very chao ah lian and i wasnt a fan of glossy stuff! Plus, i wanted a shoulder bag more badly than i wanted a sling. muaha so there you go.

Then, when we finally met up with EVERYONE in kaka, we hurried to the cinemas and went to catch NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM. i suppose it really isnt as nice as what i thought it should be after hearing all the nice comments from everyone who caught it. Think i'll only rate it 3 out of 5 stars. cos i still think that THE HOLIDAY is a much more nicer show that you should watch instead! its like 4.5/5stars. KNOCK KNOCK. oh gosh, the emo girl prefers emo/sweet/romantic comedies to horror comedies! hahaha.

After movieing, we chionged(literally, miss november should know my speed after taking a sweet romantic "stroll" with me at citilink that day when we hurried from raffles to ritz) from marina to NEWYORKx2 cos we had a reservation at 6.15 and our movie ended at 605. lol. Shared a few dishes there + the chocolate fondue. Im such a noob bummer, it was my first time tasting chocolate fondue oh boy. Had candy floss too! michelle and ali are such evil people. When they couldnt finish the candyfloss, they dumped the candyfloss into the cups of water provided so that the floss would turn into powder and dissolve in the water. lol. Good way to discard of candyfloss.

After that, we were trying to finish up this mushroom cappucino thingy that the ignorant michelle ordered cos no one liked that at all. HAHA. then, we played the korean version of CAI1 QUAN2 and ali kena-ed twice! so the loser had to drink like 2 spoonfuls of the horrible soup. alright, it was still edible not like what ali had described. When she had to drink up, the first time she puked out everything and let the liquid flow out of her mouth disgustingly. We were so EEEU-ed by what she did. The second time was worse, she attempted to force 3 spoonfuls down into her mouth and then even sipped some water already. After that, we tried to make her swallow everything but in the end, she still puked everything on the plate. YUCKKKS ali. ahhahaha. but that's her. lol.

After NEWYORKNEWYORKing, we walked along citilink and that was when i bought my NUM bag which i posted earlier on. What a waste, mich didnt bring along her NUM card and i havent received my membership either. so couldnt get a 10% discount of 15bucks. RAH. but oh well, still bought it. Then we went to marina to get mini her nike bag. We continued shopping around and went to ZARA whereby mini bought a ROCKER GREY TOP while i was contemplating to buy this alil-off-shoulder-white-cool-looking top which i ultimately didnt purchase since i didnt have enough money at the end of the day plus i still think i look fat in white. ahhahaha.

Then, the trio (ali, rongy, yilin) went home. cos yilin's gg to australia tmr! oh gosh, she has been to korea, thailand i think and aussie this holiday. LUCKY BUM. then the four of us went to mac to chill. We tooked about 140pictures there i swear. It was so paiseh cos there was so many people looking at us while mini and fee was snapping shots of us cos mich and i were facing the crowd. We took seriously disgusting pictures, oh add retarded in as well. HAHAHA. Show you some when michelle has finish uploading them. Ahh, kaka's so nice to talk to even after a year.

ohho, to sidetrack a bit, i was sitting opposite this so not good looking guy but i was so attracted to look at him cos of his jeans and shoes. i like guys who wear such stuff.

The middle guy, so nice right! hahaha. it somehow reminded me of someone(:

Bet you know who you are!

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okay, while im still waiting for mich to send me photos! tell you something first. for the past few weeks i've been constipating but just now. it was LIBERATION! guessed i had too much to eat today. Shit-ted twice and pee-d once! weehee. shuang(:

ahha. im such a funny and weird person i think. Just saw something and i cant believe my heart actually ached for a moment. Its like you can literally feel your heart sink. oh boy, emo moments arent good for the body.

Alright, im still waiting for the pics. Shall go edit some first(:
DAMNIT mich's comp went to hibernate and the uploading stopped! RAH. i've been waiting since eons ago.

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Im finally done with editing pics. sorry for the lousy photoshopping cos im being rushed by miss michelle who has waited for about an hour to see my nice entry and my internet's really laggy!):

Here you go(:

WAHSEH. its gonna be 330am and i just finished editing the pictures! weehee.



How could u possibly not snap a shot of bimbotic kokyilin! wahahaha. her favourite bimbo pose since months ago, right?

Sexy left profile of mine. I DONT LOOK LIKE AN APE RIGHT, thats what the stupid choir people say.

WEEEHHEEEE. double images are so cool. can u spot our 2 heads?

EMO KIDS. fee is the best representative! hahahahha. not me(:

YES! fugly indeed thats why dont have me(:

FULL KAKA dining at newyorknewyork(:

WANNA KISS((:

everyone wants to be michelle in this picture, but hold on, i've better stuff if you're gonna scroll down.

Can u see my face in the first pic?

1st: Wanna kiss me?

2nd: Alright, lets try.

3rd: OOH, i'm loving it!

4th: OW, you're biting my lips! but i like(:

WAAHAHAHAHAHA.

1st: WAHSEH. mich what the hell are u trying to do?

2nd: Im forced):

3rd: Lets get closer!

4th: OOH. shorter french fry.

5th: MM, we can do this!

Sexy magical moments of yours truly(:

Pigging out moments as usual. the pictures say it all!

Always retarded(: thats why you're in love with us!

Okay, let me explain. I was trying to sit when taking photos with mini and fee. BUT mich, my dearest lover of all, just LOVES to take pictures of me when im trying to SIT!...

WE LOVE SPONGEBOB. hahaha actually i dont really. but the toy is so SPONGEY, oooh i like!

YAY! happy moments yet again(:

Fee fantasizes of mich and i kissing, as always(:

YESYES! mini, i know whats on your mind ALLL THE TIME! michelle's BOOBIES! wahahhaa.

Michelle's longing to kiss fee, cos she has been kissing me too much lately! LOL(:

Definitely. Fee's the siaoest in kaka. Her retarded laughter and her. OH BOY. you can never find anything worse than that! See, i look so blissful there while thinking of her. MUAHAHAH.

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WOW. i took 4 hours to complete this gugukaka entry. OMG. my internet really SUCKS big time.GRRRRR.okay back to bed soon. didnt even sim tonight at all! hahaha. goodnight everyone(:

Today was the best christmas ever.

I usually spend my christmas day at home, bumming around as usual. Today was uniquely different. We carolled and sang our hearts today, during all the raffles sessions including the final 10mins session at ritz today. Really loved them.

Well, the grand reunion at raffles lobby at 330pm was an indeed must watch if you're around the vicinity. 'cos we had all the seniors (some year5/6) and seniors from victoria chorale. its simply AMAZING when you hear the resonance and how well we sounded at the raffles hotel lobby. There was this huge crowd awaiting us even before we entered the lobby. In addition, the pervetic camera guy who comes to raffles to take picture of GIRLS only is here this year again as usual. Heard he's been here for the past few years, and this year, novabelle was his TARGET. LOL.

After our fourth session at raffles, we were all very satisfied with ourselves, about how well we sang at the lobby. Just then, debbie informed us that there was this last min decision to ask along 10 people from our choir to sing at ritz. oh gosh, we were initally all so fearful cos we just had this amazing session with nelson and a 100man strong choir. Suddenly, we're just gonna depend on 10 pathetic voices!? Nevertheless, we headed towards ritz dejectedly. Then, when we arrived at this small room with about 10 tables which was full of angmohs, my whole face lit up. Their food hasnt arrived, so basically they spend about 15-20 minutes hearing us carol. They were SUPER APPRECIATIVE and was snapping photos of us. There was even a few cute angmoh toddlers who were running around in the room while we sang jingle bells. Gosh, singaporeans indeed do have to learn from the nice caucasians. We are just so not appreciative of everything. Plus, with only a ten man strong choir, its so easy to sing out and feel the dynamics and feel of the song. Furthermore, this is the first session i ever smiled SOOOO MUCH. i mean, i usually smile a lot already but for this, my cheekbones were just high throughout the whole session. Gosh, i miss that session or probably i miss carolling terribly. Its gonna be so sad after today, studying studying studying.

Alright, i probably wouldnt start studying so early. Gotta go out with kaka tomorrow to celebrate mine mini's and ali's bday. Drats. I havent gotten all the xmas presents for them. Swear mich is gonna kick my ass tmr if i still dont get them ready. But ive been carolling all these days. Havent had the time): hahaha. alright, dont procrastinate anymore. Im so gonna miss the holidays.

Anyway, after carolling at ritz. we walked back to raffles hotel, yes through marina, citilink, raffles city. I so know the area very well already after repeating this procedure for the past week.(: Thereafter, we decided to head to marina for steamboat. Unfortunately the spider girl had to go home for xmas dinner so she couldnt enjoy the sumptuous feast we had at marina. Kind of fun cos we were carolling during dinner despite the weird stares people were throwing over from all sides. Had a blast cooking the food stuff for one another too. Then, after steamboat dinner we walked for like 1 hour about 5-6 bus stops back to the mrt station. During that one hour, we were just walking along the dark streets and carolling like there's no tomorrow. Aw. so heartwarming. ahahhaa.

Cant believe one year just breezed past like that. I was still a year zero a year ago. And im gonna be a year two very soon which means graduation's coming. gosh. I still remembered that i saw chiew shan the cockroach blog at the beginning of the year. She was saying how fast time flies when you're in jc and how fast she evolved from a year one to two. I gotta say that that's so true. Jc one's pretty fun actually cos you dont get to enjoy that much esp with the choir people during year two when life's pretty much about studying.

I was looking at the WHERE IS MAY video which i took with yuting during italy this year. Gosh, i missssss ITALY loads. seriously. fond memories just gushed out all of a sudden. I will really really miss vj choir when we have to start studying for A's next year. Haha, im so emo in the middle of the night. This is bad.

Sigh.
im sorry if i dont have an answer.

I'm just ..

i dont know.

Today was yet another carolling day. Unfortunately, its the second last carolling session we're gonna have this year);

Anyway, it was fun carolling at ritz. we did what the raffles people didnt do such as gg to the 32nd floor in ritz whereby u can catch a glimpse of the picturesque scenery from there. We also had to hold thick banana candles for an hour as we had an one hour carolling session in three different food places today. Super suan after holding the candle for one hour but quite fun indeed, especially after you realised that you have successfully spread the joy to your audience(:

Mmm.

After carolling, we went to the ktv near cine to sing. Really gotta thank jerrold and his cousin cos i heard they spent 700bucks or something like that for the booking of the room to sing until 6am the next morning. In the end, half of us left at 1am to catch the train home. Ahh. So unlikely of me to not havoc, as what oliver would say. But, i feel glad that im home now, feeling refreshed after my bath. Guess the rest are still having fun singing? ahhaha.

Okay.

Main highlight of the day.

Huping, shuwei, rayrin, may and i were heading to somerset mrt station from the ktv. Then we saw a lot of people holding those irritating disgusting party sprays along the street and they were having so much fun spraying the foam at their friends. Fine, spray their friends but i was just hoping i wouldnt get sprayed.

Then we got quite bored on our way back (okay, i wasnt that bored, was on the lookout of potential random sprayers) so we started imitating the sound of the party sprayer which goes like "PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSTTTT"! so we played and joked along the way, until this RAH RAH RAH freakshit guy who was walking with a bunch of friends, suddenly whipped out a can of that irritating foam from nowhere and sprayed on me(right side)! So my hair kana tio, shirt and also bag. DAMNIT. looked like a retard for a second probably.

Then, i guessed i procrastinated a bit too loudly. 'cos after i finish wiping off the foam and started cursing that guy under my breath, another irritating guy SPRAYED the stupid foam on my left. DAMN. both sides kana tio. super irritated. Before i even knew it, i was kena sprayed YET AGAIN by the third random guy!

Shouldnt the gov like set a rule which bans people from spraying on strangers!?

The worst lot is that AMONG THE FIVE OF US, the most innocent looking, charming, adorable, sexy, hot, elegant PERSON was being the target of the random SPRAYING. HELLO!? okay, that's me by the way if you havent realised. DAMNIT. was mocked by the other four. ddrrrrrrgh.

Im never celebrating xmas eve at orchard again. mauhahaha.

Alright, according to yizha's favourite quote, since christmas is all about forgiving and sharing, pls forgive me for any misdeeds i've done this year.

I mean it, i hope you understand(;

Okay, off to sim-ing(:
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I wish time could come to a standstill now.

ENOUGH of my holiday stay in emoland. by the way, my eyelids are like shutting down any moment. im facing huge difficulty just to report to you on the daily happenings! what a noble person i am. alright, dont smile, i know i am(:

Let me put up some pictures of the "4d class outing" whereby only half the class turned up. LOL. everyone's either on holidays, not feeling well or having something on. drrrats.



Ronald's thumb on the top left corner. hahaha some of the class guys are walking in the background if u can spot them.

Heh. the pathetic no. of girls who turned up(:

From left: Michelle, ME(yay!), sexy momma hanna, angela, rongy and june!

Miss feefee was in bintan happy holidaying.

Miss kokyilin was church camping happily.

Miss mini was in malaysia shopping.

Miss ali was sick in bed cheerfully.

HAHA. that leaves kaka with only mich, me and rongy. oh gosh..

Talking about hanna, washseh, her life sounded so fun. Working with topmodels at runways, studying in the fashion school, being able to purchase branded bags and shoes at ultra cheap prices and wearing thongs everyday. Doesnt it sound exciting? muahaha. okay, except for the last point but speaking of thongs, she bought yilin mich and i(!?) a thong each.

I picked the best out of the three.

Dont you agree that the logo is kind of cute? muahaha. from victoria secrets.

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ALRIGHT. enough about thongs and how lousy my phone camera is. FINE! ahhahaha, dont laugh. you should just get me a digital camera or a new phone if you actually did.

We have been carolling like nobody's business for the past week or so. And omg, we're left with 2 more days of carolling and its over): kind of sad although i feel like im losing my voice within the next few days or so. sheesh. i will miss carolling. its a year one thing, and its quite cool to be a year one. mmhmm. I was talking to jj online just now for quite some time and discussing about our studies. Gosh. And then i discovered that i seriously have no idea what i actually learnt in jc this year. In secondary school, if u wanted to mug hard after slacking for quite some time, you'll know that its possible. But hey, its different in JC. so you year zeros out there who's gg to a jc next yr, pls do not slack/pon in year one like the blogger over here. But you seriously cant help a fine attendance of approx 3 days per week of school if you have mr goh ke liang as your ct?! agree! yes.

Had tuition with shuwei just now in the afternoon. We did probability. and.. SIGH. i'm kind of demoralized. ahh gosh. school's starting when im gonna blink my eye again. YUCK. no. okay, i better learn to like it since im gonna spend at least another 280 days in school i suppose?

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After carolling today, with marcus joining us today, we sang a few of our italy competition songs like ashita, bi-nam-ma, factum, hear my prayer & zhu li guan. hmm, fond memories of italy gushed back to my mind. haha. Thereafter, we ate dinner and headed back homes. Once again, the divison between the northern-ers and eastern-ers. lol.

So the innocent me was on the train, and i didnt really feel like going home that early yesterday night at about 1130. haha. so when i arrived at ONE TANAH MERAH, UH HAR UH HAR, okay (for jialing only) hahaha, jialing used her might and forced me to stay in the cabin. In the end, as i didnt really feel like home-ing that early, i went with the rest (huping, wayne, rr, jl) to tampines starbucks. Unfortunately, to my greatest concern, there wasnt any train that was heading to tanah merah anymore since the last train has already departed from pasir ris. Furthermore, bus no. 10 had already terminated its service by the time i reached the interchange.

So i went to starbucks without caring about what time i had to get home anymore since i'm cabbing back. rah, 150% lei, the cabfare. Anyway, we chatted for a while while the nice jl treated me to chocolaty danish. Im such a nice year one la, cant believe i demanded one of the cheapest food from jl as my xmas present, since my santa claus(LILIAN!!!) is not carolling with us. HAHA. oh gosh, no wonder i didnt receive my present at all. Thanks huping for that honey stick anyway(;

Then at about 1220 we left tm xingqian(STARBUCKS). Sent huping to the mrt station so that he can catch the last train heading towards pasir ris. After that, we walked to the interchange and i decided to be really nice, and sent jl home too. Took a bus with her to her house and walked to her to void deck. Oh boy, and it started raining. By the time i wanted to flag for a cab, it was kind of pouring. So i had to pathetically stand at the side of the road while hailing a cab. Luckily, an empty MAXI cab lookalike was spotted within moments. Hopped onto it without wondering if i had to pay extra for the bigger cab. ahha, and i didnt have to, fyi.

Reached home at about 105 and mr nice revilo called me on the cab after seeing my msg. Was planning to sit at the lobby of my block for quite some time to chat. In the end, he just reached home too so i dejectedly went up although i still didnt feel like home-ing. muahaha. Then, i came online and started talking cock as usual, bloghopped, and finally settled on siming at 2+. GOODNESS. for yuting's info. haha, my female sim died cos of hunger desperation and lack of energy. the rip thingy came and collected her soul regardless of how hard my male pleaded. FREAK. so i didnt save it and played again. SHE DIED THE SECOND TIME TOO. gosh, for the third time, it finally worked out.ahahhaa, but i guess i was too tired already by that time. So i actually stopped after an hour plus of siming. grrr. so unlike me. ahhaha.

but then again, i've gotta meet miss jialing at Billy Bombers at Marina tomorrow for lunch and her milkshake treat at 1330. Oh, just in case you're interested to lunch with us tomorrow, pls contact either of us(;

THANKS. hahaha, if u actually sustained until this point, AMAZING. cant believe anyone will be so free and bored to read my daily ramblings, and this entry certainly is a rambly one.

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I'm trying to get over you.
Oh boy, its tough,
but i'm trying.

I am really confused and perturbed over my never-ever-so complicated thoughts.

Hmm, my mind's like racing now and my heart's skipping a beat every second i type this. i dont know why, but this is really taking up a huge lot in my puny heart and i really have to let it all out.

"reach out to me
make my heart brand new
every beat will be for you
for you

and I know you know
you touched my life
when you touched my heavy heart and made it light"

So i cant really express whatever thats brewing within me into simple terms cos its really not-so-simple.

"Uh huh, life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is"

Let me ask you a question. Have you ever felt that every song that was on your ipod, emo songs especially, can be catered to just one special someone? I mean, when you browse your every title that's playing, you can just straight away relate it to you-know-who? I dont know. I just discovered that. Some songs really made my day while some just led me to know that ...

Hey, actually we got our own paths to take.
You've decided on your route and the same goes for me.
It's like a crossroad.
Pass this point and the paths will never meet again.

It's supposed to be carpe diem, i know. But, there's this part of me that isnt keen of letting go,
i really want the feeling to linger. I hope you get what i mean.

"But I'm in so deep.
You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger?
Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?"

I was really affected when i heard what hurts the most by rascal flatts.

It goes like this,

"What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin to do"

Oh boy, you gotta admit how true that actually is. I wonder how long i'll be stuck in emo-land when the day comes? You know, today i finally understood what it meant when people said,

'Absence makes the heart grows fonder'.

I really felt that. Plus, if you know me well, you would probably know that i believe in love at first sight. muaha, oh gosh. Initially, i've heard people saying that they dont believe in such stuff 'cos if that rule holds, your target will probably be someone fantabulously great looking. Nah. That doesnt have to be entirely true, um, true to a certain extent. 'cos when you like that someone, you know that that certain someone is already perfect in your eyes. No flaws. Perfect.

"Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life"

I've never anticipated that life to be mine. And all of a sudden, i might just be clinging onto that little hope you've left me with, saving my life. Gosh. Do you understand how it feels like when fear and blame crosses each other's path for just a moment? I dont know about you, but it certainly feels terrible.

"Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone."

Sometimes, i just hate myself for my bizarre behaviour. Things arent supposed to be like this, but some stuff i guess are just unstoppable. If you get what i mean.

Ahh, i feel so much better after blogging it all out.

"Beautiful dawn - You're just blowing my mind again.
Thought I was born to endless night, until you shine.
High; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Will you be my shoulder when I'm grey and older?
Promise me tomorrow starts with you,
Getting high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me"

Ah yes, unforgettable. I hope you feel the same way as i currently do.

Ha. i cant believe i actually blog all this shit out. But i just couldnt take it anymore, i really had to let it all out. Im left with some touching up of the christmas cards and i need to sim again! hahaha. today's working as some seamstress at vs was kind of fun. Especially helping those cute pri 6 taonan boys with the purchasing of yucky victoria sch uniform. HAHA. im kind of a professional tailor now. Come to me for measurements,

if only you will.

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Sometimes, i rather the day just ends here.

When i'm still living in the delusion of shortlived happiness.

And i dont want the world to see me,

cos i dont think that they understand.

And that everything's meant to be broken,

i just want you to know who i am.

Do you?

(with courtesy of Let it all out - Relient K; Complicated - Avril Lavigne; Linger - Cranberries; What hurts the most - Rascal Flatts; How to save a life - The Fray; Where'd you go - Fort Minor; High - James Blunt and Iris - Goo Goo Dolls)

And breathe, just breathe.
Oh breathe, just breathe.

i love this song(:

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i cant really blog about today. i only recalled waking up at 1pm after sleeping at 330am this morning. Then, i went off to playing sims2 from 2pm to 9pm. YAY. im so not gonna touch sims anymore. finally(:

Now, i've gotta start on writing christmas cards. gosh. about another 20 more or so to go. how am i gonna finish them all. sorry if you receive slip-shot loooking cards. its the thought that counts right?(:

haha. you arent online today. hope you're having fun.

seeyou people! tomorrow's gonna be a busy frilly woozie day.

I wanted to talk.
Flipped through my messenger list,
its either i have very little people to turn to,
or that its getting kind of late.
Everyone's asleep,
i should head back to bed.

But it is resounding in my head.
I cant drift off to dreamyland.
Ah, how i wish i always had an answer to everything.

To cheer you people up, here's a brainy intellectual video for your viewing pleasure. aw, gosh, im in love with thai ads(:


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Today's carolling was kind of sucky, albeit it was the last carolling session we had at marina. Then again, i guess the turn up rate was the highest today! nevertheless, only four altos. we have never exceeded having more than 4 altos this carolling. lol.

Oh well. My connection sucks like shit now. There's no one talking to me on msn, and if you had typed something but i didnt reply. SO SORRY. its my connection. grrrr. my router's just beside my laptop only! but i dont know what the hell is wrong with the damned connection. Its taking me an hour and blogger still doesnt load! Now, i have to type my entry in word pad. super pathetic. So in the meantime, im engaging my intellectual self in TIME mags, before the mags start piling up and get taller than me. alright, kidding. im so freaking tall. one six three point five okay(:

Had dinner with the choir people as usual. and, the year zeros are super freaking duper ultra BIMBOTIC. especially cedarians. dawn and sindhu, the famous DSA prostitutes, are already perfect examples! lol.

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Why.
I rather you were never there.

Accuse me of being impassive.
At the end of the day,
i'm at the losing end.

This isnt me.
This is the sensitive soul within me,
who knows that you wouldnt be there
at the end of the day.

Why get myself so involved.
And allow history to repeat itself.
Find myself walking on the taut string.
Experiencing the feeling of falling for every step i take.

and i'm so not over you.

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James Blunt - High

Beautiful dawn - lights up the shore for me.
There is nothing else in the world,
I'd rather wake up and see (with you).
Beautiful dawn - I'm just chasing time again.
Thought I would die a lonely man, in endless night.
But now I'm high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Beautiful dawn - melt with the stars again.
Do you remember the day when my journey began?
Will you remember the end (of time)?
Beautiful dawn - You're just blowing my mind again.
Thought I was born to endless night, until you shine.
High; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me.

Will you be my shoulder when I'm grey and older?
Promise me tomorrow starts with you,
Getting high; running wild among all the stars above.
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me

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This is such a meaningful song, right?

Have you ever felt like seeing yet not seeing someone. Maybe you have, think about it.
You'll probably get what i mean.

Night.

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

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I came to a realisation that we're all like snow. Was inspired by this song called, snow is falling, a song that i learnt when i was secondary one. brought back some fond memories, obviously not about how great i looked back then. the song lyrics goes like this, cant really remember everything though.

Snow is falling,
gently falling,
from a sky of grey.
Turns a dreary morning
to a magic winter day.

Cold and clean and white.
Shining diamond bright.
All the world seems right,
when
snow is falling,
gently falling,
from a sky of grey.

(with courtesy of sx's memory)

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Actually we are really like snow. We all start off as different individuals from different backgrounds. Some of us come from the underground baseflow or the subsurface throughflow or many more flows that i do not know of, just like how im uncertain of the origins of life. Then, we congregate together as we all flow towards the same destination, the lake, river, sea and ocean. After some time, we get to know each other really well and we evaporate together forming nice fluffy clouds you see in the sky. We get to know more about the others when more and more water vapour gather together to form bigger and much thicker clouds, making ourselves even more bonded than before. Then, when the weather turns cold, we realise that things arent the same as before, so we start to drift apart as the strong wind blows. Now that things are different, its kind of hard to find that particular cloud you've been sticking to all the time. All of a sudden, you feel alone yet again, like how you started off when you were in the flow that was heading towards the ocean. Before you know it, it turns reallly reallly cold and the temperature falls below zero degrees. Brr. you're freezing. Just then, the cloud that you're in now gets heavier and heavier as your troubles start building up one by one. Within moments, you feel as if you're falling. And now what? You drop back to earth, to reality, as snowflakes. Now, you're all alone. Individually, you start thinking about what has happened in the past as you slowly fall to the ground. Plop. You fall onto a snowy ground which was initially a grass land. Its a totally brand new environment you've never seen before. Back to being in the form of a liquid(water), you cant seem to find the other group of friends you've made in the skies, when you felt like you were in heaven, in paradise. Lonely and crestfallen, you make your way back to the basics through infiltration or percolation. Before you even realise, you'll soon be evaporated again.

See, isnt life like the snow cycle?

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its hard to say goodbyes.
i know.

Hello blog, i'm so tired.

Today's kind of eventful. let me tell you all about it alright? great.

We went to the SIA building to carol for some lunch function. It's kind of cool cos i didnt know that there are actually a lot of other companies, (at least 50) which can be located in the SIA building. Finance, trading and the list continues. The lunch crowd which we were supposed to carol to wasnt quite really a crowd. After every song, we only have about 10-20 people clapping for us except for the end when more people congregated at the sides instead of gathering right in front of the choir. The funniest part was when the altos, which is practically just me and johnnie, came in wrongly for the jingle bells part. so we kind of cause the whole choir to screw up in the blending for the whole of the first part, where we go jingle jingle jingle... bla bla bla. i think i had this oh-my-god-i-really-screwed-this-up look on my face after hearing the clashes of the supposedly harmonious melody. Debbie immediately had to cut us off. ahha sorry. and i had to curb my laughter. couldnt be possibly laughing my head off while everyone's carolling right. so i had to clench my fists and break out in cold sweat and kept reminding my mind about PROFESSIONALISM when carolling. Well, everything went fine after that. but only seventeen people turned up, kind of disappointing.

This few days is really tiring for us, imagining carolling everyday, repeating all the songs and im kind of bored of carols already. Hmm, i dont like this feeling. Christmas is suppose to be a season of joy alright! By the way, there's carolling tmr at marina square at 7pm. please drop by if you're free and shopping with your spouses/boyfriend/girlfriend/cliques/siblings/grandparents/parents/kids/relatives. Thanks(: After this, its gonna be chionging of christmas carol from 21st-25th. GOSH.

After carolling at the SIA building, we went to Plaza Sing to lunch. It's kind of disappointing towards the end. Shant blog about it. but anyoways, to my surprise i sort of enjoyed the alexandra ikea outing with the partial exco - sx and zha(: We embarked on our journey from dhoby to queenstown without having much idea about getting to ikea since mr street directory, huping, wasnt with us. lol. its time to get independent! no worries, with the two intellectual tksians around, yizha safely arrived at ikea about 45minutes later.

Then, we started shopping, looking for whatever we have to buy which is highly confidential, and also furniture/accesories that are needed when we're gonna revamp the choir room. I always love shopping at IKEA cos furniture is simply amazing, or should i say interior designing. its like one of my ambitions i guess? But, somehow i dont think i fit the bill of a designer. lol, okay forget it. shant bore you with my ambitions.

Thereafter, we shopped and shopped and bitched(okay, we didnt, for the first time!), and talked and crapped and whatever for about an hour before settling at the food place at ikea. Shall post up the picture of our amazing yummylicious teabreak which eventually evolved into dinner cos we were freaking full after finishing the food. I had the cheese cake, coffee and chicken wings which should never have been consumed together cos the cheese cake is kind of sweet and the coffee's bitter while the chicken wings are oily! rah. didnt felt very good after that and i was super full. till now, i still am. Happily talked for about another half an hour or forty five minutes. Its kind of fun talking in small groups, like what sx said, but i think.. hmm thats very true. Big groups dont really allow you to talk as much and freely as you want. And, today would be not fun in that fun-fun way if the people i went out with arent yizha and sx. So, i guess you really enjoy different kinds of fun when you go out with different people. A totally different feeling, get what i mean? haha alright nevermind.

By the time we left ikea, it was pouring rats and elephants and giraffes and dinosaurs. Oh, and we spotted a blue giraffe in amidst our shopping. What if a 4year old kid actually thinks that giraffes are blue? and they go to the zoo next time and start accusing the zookeepers that the giraffes in the zoo are fakes? oh gosh, toy designers must be more witty in this area. okay, no more sidetracking. We waited for the bus for about 15minutes. 195 came along, but it was too crowded by the time we wanted to board it. so we took a cab, (PEAKHOUR!), and sent yizha to marina, dropped sx at meyer and finally it was miss bayshore park. oh my god, the cab was so rocky and bumpy. okay, i meant the driver kept going at a faster speed, then suddenly brake here and there. so irritating. was stuck on the cab for like 50minutes. freaking long right! in the end, the cab fare amounted to an astronomical sum of $21.70. SHIXUAN, u better tip me a bit more instead of just passing me that 2dollar note okay! hahaha.

I feel so guilty today. In the morning, johnnie and i cabbed down to SIA building. the fare's $16.70. Add both fares together and u can get me another pair of haviannas already! RAH. cabs - NO GOOD. i dont understand why cab drivers cant earn a lot. Angmohs are so freaking rich, i always spot them taking cabs here and there. aahh, so envious.

Oh and u know what? If i've been talking to you lately, you would have known that my angmoh pilot neighbour has this uber huge xmas tree in his house near the gate which is ULTRA SUPER NICE from the corridor towards my unit. Normally, it would be glittering and shining due to the nice christmas lights and the deco on the tree.

BUT GUESS WHAT? just now when i came home, i realised .. that *sobs* THE CHRISTMAS TREE IS GONE!!! where is it? i still wanted to make friends with my neighbours since their christmas tree is so nice. but aww, i guessed that they moved it somewhere else, somewhere not for my viewing pleasure. SO SAD. i wont have the warm fuzzy feeling within me when i reach home late. Sigh.

Some things can't be helped. Maybe its just my character.

I can only be who i am;
I can never be someone else.

Tonight's kind of chilly.
then again, i love chilly nights.

With the wind blowing on your face,
your fringe sweeping across your profile,
the fatigue that is boiling within you,
oh gosh, its a PERFECT weather to sleep.

im just wondering why my mind hasnt told my body to return to bed.

carolled quite a bit today, regardless of whether we were just carolling for fun while walking, or carolling during the carolling sessions at marina and the pines.

I feel so tired sometimes.

Add helpless in too.

Sometimes, i really dont know what to do. I always want what i can't want, and when that happens, i rather not want anything. I'm so friggin fickle. Kill me please. see, im really tired. dont even know what the hell im blogging over here. all im trying to say is tonight's a nice night. sleep early and rest well. there's carolling tmr, tues, 21-25. we better take good care of our bodies. gosh, i hope i have the stamina to finish writing my xmas cards(:

seeyou people.

There's a light at each end of this tunnel, you shout
But you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
These mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, its no longer
inside of me, threatening the life they belong to
And i feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
oh breathe, just breathe.

Hello. i'm supposed to be mugging today, or at least thats what the choir people i went lunching with would possibly assume im doing at home the whole day!

but ..

HELL NO!
i spent a freaking one and the half hour packing my files.

it goes like this, MATH, ECONS, PHYSICS and tada. the worst subject to file.. GEOGRAPHY!

now all my geog notes are in this huge mess. u know that huge ring file u can buy from popular? yeah, my geog notes are spilling out of that file already! its simply not enough for me!!! rah. gotta get a new one soon.

so its like, while packing geog notes, i scanned through the notes and fished out a few words i couldnt believe i had studied for 2 months back.. like, urban density gradient? then the tough part arrived. how the hell do i pack the notes together? there are so many notes with 1a, 2d, 3c, bla bla on top. and every note has an urban on it. how do i remember whats categorized under what? gooooodness. i hope i dont have to take out anything from that geog file in the near future. im so gonna be traumatised by the sudden outburst of geographical terms. alright. enough of packing.

went for dinner just now. had a HUGE dinner and i had a HUGE lunch at thaipan too. gosh, FAT u know? drrrats. today, while walking at parkway, bought hallmark xmas cards with oliver! yay, and i completed 5 just now while my internet connection died on me since 103,899,246 years ago. i hate it! damn. so, i dont know how long my christmas spree will last. was even listening to an xmas cd with those old guys singing songs like, HAVE YOURSELF A MERRY LITTLE CHRISTMAS AND O HOLY NIGHT playing on my cdplayer. lol.

ook. detailed report of my life today. there's gonna be carolling sessions tmr. 1pm at marina. pop by and say HI to yours truly, if u're free tmr okay(:

have you ever stood on a seesaw?

When you stood on one extreme of the seesaw, the other side just seemed so far away. the things that are categorized under IMPOSSIBLE and you know that there are things there that you want but will never have it. those are the things you want to have but cant have. By standing on one end of the seesaw, you're on the floor while the other extreme's way up high. poles apart.

Then you attempt to walk to the middle of the seesaw, trying to get a balance of everything. its kind of hard, 'cause its easy to fall and probably not as stable as standing on one end. This is the difficult part. you juggle between both ends and then try to make a decision as to which side you should head for. You need a direction now, to stabilise and calm yourself so that you wont fall. No one likes the feeling of falling.

When you head for the other direction which is different from the initial one, you have mixed emotions about your decision. Occasionally, you reminisce about your previous route and how you have felt when you were at the other end of the seesaw. But now, its different. you're finally on the other side! you experience a whole new emotions that you never felt before. Refreshing you might say. Then again, you just miss the past. Oh well.

Whatever.

Carpe diem. Seize the day.

im just typing crap before sleeping. sorry for causing you to be awake because of this entry. haha. goodnight everyone(:

You know, i've always loved christmas.

its most probably not about the religon part i suppose, since im neither a catholic nor christian. haha. BUT i've gotta admit, CHRISTMAS is the BEST BEST FANTABULOUS season that ever existed within the 365 days we have each year.

Its a season of joy! gosh, have yourself a merry little christmas, make the yuletide gay. yeah! im humming along to xmas carols now despite of the fact that michelle branch's game of love blasting on my laptop. haha.

I love the christmas deco! the lights, and especially the TREE! its probably because i havent been doing the trees since i was a kid and also because of the religon. my family doesnt really celebrate christmas too. but this year, oh well, im staying in singapore for christmas and we're carolling! vj choir as well as vic chorale. gosh, its gonna be MAGNIFICENT.

yet, the joy is shortlived. A few days after christmas spells my doom. the rush and hectic schedules im gonna have to cope with, the strenuous school hours and choir hours. i hate it. thats why i cant wait for my next christmas.

my EIGHTEENth christmas is gonna be one great day. with no worries for probably the next half of the year after our As. oh gosh. you dont know how much i envy those who completed their As already. ohno, no more fantasizing.

CHRISTMAS.

i love it(:

I finally finished watching season two of grey's anatomy. there's still season three, but i dont have the dvd. guess it sort of marked the end for my grey's anatomy episode. hmm.

the last episode of season two's really sad. it wasnt that sad until i heard chasing cars by snow patrol; that myriad of emotions; and probably, the realisation that i really have to get on with the normal hectic life i used to have made me teared while watching the last ten minutes.

i really love shows i suppose. today i caught the holidays at the cathay. its just a fine simple nice show which leaves a smile on your face for the next ten minutes or so. I like simple shows. Shows that allow me to escape from reality for however long the show is, that allows me to put myself in the shoe of the character in the show. exactly. escapade from reality. once again.

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

yes, im constantly living in my own fairytale. arent you?

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today i realised that my definition of hot guys is totally different from shuwei's. let me show u what i mean by hot. haha.

the main cast of grey's anatomy(:




Derrick and Meredith.





dont you think that that certain type of guy, who has that level of maturity on their faces, with some stubble here and there, posing off a sexy look, hairy to a certain extent, with those amazing deep blue eyes are tremendously endangered in today's society?

one more, okay.





Now, jude law!



OKAY. period. enough of fairytales and fantasizing.

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goodbye cyberworld,

hello reality.

hello hello.

knock knock.

whats wrong?

im feeling weird these days. gosh, and it probably isnt about social batteries running low. drats.

knock knock.

is anyone there?





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Its definitely hard to find me in such a perfect mood to blog about the recent happenings, of which i havent been updating here on the blog. Its kind of late, but let me present to you the various galleries that are in store for you..

Firstly, the MUSICAL which happens to fall on the greatest day ever - 1st Dec. yep, ure right. my birthday! how can u ever miss it!? (:

preparation for musical. oh, did u know? the curtains were spoilt. it sort of dampened our morale in the morning, but everything was fine thereafter. therefore we couldnt close the curtains at all if u did notice! haha and see people scurrying about on the stage when the lights were dimmed.

yizha can never get enough of being the spokesperson for miss pignose!

:)SUPER ELATED to super sad):

vice versa!

a super "tenor poser" picture!(check the les mis booklet!)

RAWWWRRR. zi high-ing before concert!

WAH. got a jack's place tiramisu cake as my bday cake!(:

HEHHEH.

YAY! i like(:

sindhu and shuwei busy with the preparation of cutting the cake.

LES MISERABLES! here we go(: check out dawn's pose. LOL. so PIG.

huping and i(:

my five years tk old friend(:

look out! he's definitely not a bitch, cos he's THE BITCH(:

oh. im supposed to be dressed as a factory girl in that outfit just in case u didnt know!(:

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Thanks to those who came down(:

KAKA!

michelle!(:

and jeremy! ah. what a waste, didnt take pic with the five one people who came down. aw):

ha. and on my bday night, some nice peeps went to stay over at my old house. jerrold(gayboy!), yuting(BABA!), shuwei and oliver. then next day, we had practice again for the malacca trip.

before practice.

yuting couldnt get a better shot of herself i swear!

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"outing" with kaka at ecp. met them by chance over there with the choir people. lol.

OMG. the class is so smart. chalet's tmr and thurs. unfortunately, we've got it wrong and some people headed down to aloha loyang already. just to be informed that class chalet's TOMORROW not TODAY. MUAHA. im glad i stayed at home first. OH DEAR. the weather looks freaking good now. with thick humongous dark grey clouds that seem to devour the cloudy sky. shoots. i hope we're still having a barbeque tonight.

anyway, just carolled at marina square! its kind of cool if u think about yourself as a normal shopper who used to roam about there and chill and stuff. and now ure on the stage which is right smack in the middle of marina square, and singing christmas songs to the other shoppers! hopefully bringing joy to the rest. quite fun yup. lol.

Malacca pictures!

huping looks highly retarded here. thats why i uploaded this picture too(:

MISS PIGNOSE. who's in bali currently.

jialing, oliver and i. okay, with the gay snoopy bolster jialing bought for her friend!

WHORE! haha.

with my dear nice room mate - shuwei(:

the friendship concert: A timeless noel.

all prepared to whore before the concert began in malacca.

with the girl who tried to compete with the moles on my hand! MUAHA! obviously, i will win that competition(:

RAH. so irritated with stupid photobucket. i was even cheated to download the flock thingy which cant be used on my comp! rah. wasted so much of my time. had to switch to using imageshack halfway!