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I am such an emo freak these days.
I really really dont want to feel this way.
I dont wanna be one of those who feels emo throughout the whole day, and sort of dampen the spirits of others.
I rather my emoness occur throughout the night. and im gonna promise myself, that everything's gonna be different for the brand new day which awaits me.

That's my only option right now, regardless of whichever emo issue im referring to.

TONIGHT.
IT ENDS TONIGHT.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain

Maybe its best if you leave me alone.

RAH. such a bitchy biatch.

that was it ends tonight by the all american rejects anyway. i suddenly realised that i've been far too fortunate for the past year. thats not really good since it makes me realises how my life is filled with so much emoness these days in comparison. i think girls get emo easily, probably because they're just much more sensitive than guys. maybe. do emo girls actually scare guys away? haha. you tell me. zz. emo emo emo. no. i dont wanna be emo anymore.

tonight isnt productive. yesterday night too. my proposal's kind of screwed up. i havent learn song without words when i had already postponed voice test to tmr instead of having it today. i am so sick and tired of myself when im emo.

Sometimes, dont you wish to find someone who's a mix of a girl and guy. heshe will most probably understand you a whole lot better and provide you wth that ohsocomfy broad shoulders to lie on when you're emoing. oh no, what if i'm drifting away from being heterosexual. lol. emo distorts your mind. is any girl interested? hahahaha.

LAST WORDS:

please dont be emo. and if you ever are, dont affect your friends around you. they've got their own lives to lead too.

Thats it. sorry if u had to read such an emo entry.

I feel good.
MSN helps in de-emoing.

I feel a lot better.

Thanks for everything(:

You guys made my day, i suppose!

Its a brand new day ahead again, there's spa tmr.

RAH, or i probably would have poned.

im afraid of SPA, and whatever thats happening later on.

i dont wanna think about them.

have u ever heard of a song which you do not understand (cos the lyrics arent english/chinese-or any other lingo i know of) BUT whenever you hear that particular tune, you feel as if your heart almost skip a beat and then it slowly sinks. Then, you feel this tingling sensation running throughout your body and for whatever reason, you feel an ache at your chest - to be particular, right smack at your heart. From there, you slowly shut your eyelids and start thinking and then its as if your heart is filled with water cos you feel water gushing up from your heart to your eyes. I call that emo. Do you?

Anyway, its FLOWER DUET by DELIBES LAKME. (see, even the artist name is so foreign-looking).

The lyrics nowadays are just so true of how people feel and some of them even applies in reality.

Lets check this out. (with courtesy of ttk)

WHAT IF - Plain White T's

What if nobody likes me
what if I don't succeed
What if I give it all that I've got
and I still don't got what they need
What if I don't get anywhere at all
Will I consider myself a failure
will I be that small

What if she doesn't like me
what if I'm not her type
What if all the girls that ever like me
Are not the kind of girls that I like
What if I meet the right one and screw it up
Will I consider myself a failure
will I give up

--

Radios in Heaven - Plain White T's (they're good!)

this is like an emo song, although the lyrics not that hardcore emo kind.

You left before I had a chance to say goodbye
But that's the way life usually is
it just passes you by
But you can't hold on to regrets and you can't look back
So I'll just be thankful for the times that I had with you
I hope I'm just like you

Do they have radios in heaven?
I hope they do
'Cause they're playing my song on the radio
And I'm singing it to you
If they don't have radios in heaven
here's what I'll do
I can bring my guitar when my time is up and I'll play it for you

--

I LOVE THIS THE MOST(:

When Love and Hate Collide - Def Lepard

Without you
One night alone
Is like a year without you baby
Do you have a heart of stone
Without you
Can't stop the hurt inside
When love and hate collide

Thats all. random morning emo-ing. theres tuition later on at ten. zz.
I MUST DO MY DIFFERENTIAL EQUATION BY TODAY.
zzzzzzzzzzzzz(:

I feel like a bumbag today.

DIDNT do work. only did the research which didnt prove to be productive sadly.

And i ate quite a bit.

WORST OF ALL,

i might not end up studying tomorrow.

Im a bumbag.

Call be BB):
















CHECK this out. we finished about 3/4 of the HEINZ chilli sauce. it was a brand new bottle before dinner began. lol, unhealthy lifestyles.















the jiemeis : CAI, VIVO & POH!(:






























DA PIMP in the house!















































As u can see, the jumping shots are such a failure. PLUS, my postures are all so gugu-kanasai. All thanks to our fabulous photographer who's also my yantang:
*drumroll

...

DAWNIE the PIGNOSE rambutan head! woaho.
















We thought of our favourite song - sexy back. but er, no link to this photo right? LOL.
















Enough of jiemeis only pictures.




















okay okay. thats the last one. hahaha.















XIONG DI JIE MEIs picture(:
Malcolm, iqbal, yours truly, vivo, cai, shang the man, yanlong! (from left)
















Make some NOISE for OH SIX ASS FIVE ONE!!!
(the background's really good right.)
i love the vj logo!






























SPOT THE DIFFERENCE! did u realise that someone's missing?















SHANG THE MAN! lol.

--

Yesterday was like a total complete mix of emotions.
Tired(mainly), sad, excited, happy and i dont know. haha.

Ooh, i gotta say i LOVE miss chia alright. She's the WOMAN okay!
She treated the whole class to fruits/drinks from the fruit stall yesterday because it was vivo's last day with us): i mean ); for the latter and ((: for the former! OHGOSH. and she told vivo something super heartwarming,

"Its good that im not your tutor now, so i can be your friend."
(something like that)

SO SWEET right. ahh, i suddenly reminisce the days whereby cai, vivo and i would go around laughing at her being the FGW. haha. but she's really nice nice and oh gosh, i feel so sad all of a sudden thinking about those days.

SIGH.

guess i'll really miss vivan and her cheekiness! lol. hmm, i still remembered that when i first saw vivian, shes like so dao and stuff in her cedar uniform. and my first question(highly retarded) to her was, "you want to go to the toilet?"

zz. lol, haha if you are reading this, i hope u actually can recall that scene. its quite funny i suppose.

okok. shant be SO emo already.

(:

Im like researching on what i should actually do for my geography. Its really fun and it gives me an adrenaline rush when i start yahooing or googling about urban related geog topics. Then again, the scope's so horridly big. Plus, i gotta find something manageable so that when i do my qualitative research, i can employ as little help as possible. rah, its tough.

Suddenly, i dont know what else to blog about. emoness has probably set in due to the earlier part of the entry. And i wanna tell you that im not sure whether its because i dont know, or its because im afraid that whatever decision i make will still leave an impact, whether good or bad, its really the last thing which i will ever want to do. i dont want to lose a friendship just like that. i hope you understand.

Okay. back to researching. i really needed to get that out.

RANDOM FACT OF THE DAY:

I've officially got an eyecandy in school (only lectures)!

You wanna know who yantang is?

DONTCH tell u!

WAHAHAHAHA.

You Are a Tiny Tease

You like to flirt and show off your body, but what confident woman doesn't. You enjoy male attention, and you're usually pretty good at not leading men on. However, there are times when you get carried away with your sexy behavior. It's okay to use your amazing flirting powers for good - but never for evil!

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back. You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen Peacemaker, first to end a fight Good at thinking up creative dates Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily Going with your gut instead of your head Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault Good at recognizing patterns in relationships Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Picky

You have no problem attracting guys - and even dating a little It's just around second or third date time where you start to see faults If a guy isn't near perfect, you're not into him. It's good to have standards - but yours rule almost everyone out.

You Have Many Alpha Tendencies

You're not a total alpha female, but you certainly know how to - and like to - get your way. You're forceful without being intimidating. You're confident without being vain. A perfect mix.

You Are Friends With Potential

There's a little spark going on here, no question about it Will this develop into a hot romance? Look to your guy friend for clues. Does he flirt with all his female friends? Or are you an exception? If he's giving you special treatment, you've won a part of his heart already.

You Are Fall!

Thoughtful Expressive Creative Poetic Smart

Your Love Song Is

Wonderwall by Oasis "I'm sure you've heard it all before But you never really had a doubt I don't believe that anybody feels The way I do about you now" You know what you want - but does that person want you?

You Have Your PhD in Men

You understand men almost better than anyone. You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well. Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful.

You are a Career Girl!

You may not be a CEO yet, but you're well on your way to success. You take your career seriously, and you wouldn't stop working for any guy! An independent woman, you pay for your own car, clothes, and housing. And men appreciate that - at least, the ones as driven as you are.

You Are a Winter

You look ravishing in: Black, burgundy, emerald green, hot pink, icy colors, navy blue, red, royal purple, and white

You Don't Need a Man, but You Want One!

You like having a guy in your life, and overall, you prefer not to be single. You won't go out with a guy out of desperation.. you rather be alone. However, when you're single, you do tend to obsess a little over dating. Because no matter how good your single life is, it's better with a great guy around.

You are a Romantic Realist

Okay, so you fall in the middle. You know that love isn't like a greeting card... Yet you can always find a greeting card to describe your feelings. You are the best of both worlds Girly yet independent, dreamy yet serious. Almost any guy can find balance with you.

OKAY seriously. STOPPPP!

why am i doing so many quizzes.hahaha, as if you guys were read my results. lol. but after doing them, i feel satisfied(: I always knew that im a alpha woman to be, whaahaa, and i know men quite well har. LOL. from the above results. yay, and i am those autumn-wintery kind! woaho.

Today's quite pleasant, considering the fact that i sort of finally understood gravitation as i just had tuition. haha, and i did TWO econs essay(intl trade!). haha okay, its 1a) and 1b). since you insist that its one not two!! hahaha.

Sorry shuwei! i suddenly felt so bad after sending you off. okay, i promise to be nice, innocent(as usual actually), and patient when im listening/talking to you(: SORRRRRRRY! pls accept my sincere apology! wahaha.

okay, feeling quite high after doing so many quizzes.

RAH although i feel like exercising, i wanna pon fridays! its so boring when there's only gp math lect and math tut. school ends at 1245 and h3 starts at 340. RAHHHHH. thats freaking boring. anyone interested in mugging with yours truly during that period?): HAHAHA. okay.

zzz. im not tired. isit because of the coffee i just drank? hahaha, i think its probably because of something else. hahaha okay i better TRY to sleep soon. otherwise, im so not gonna wake up tmr. and miss pe, and get &@*#U*QW#E&W*& by the pe teacher. ZZZ.

you never gave me the chance,
to tell you that i really like you a lot.
















the ALL NEW explorer. hahaha not that much of a diff, but still looks cool right.





















Evidence of jan and i bingeing! lol at xingwang hk cafe!

Firstly, i would like to thank you for sending me the song, konstantine. haha, i think its the first song u sent me. So it was this 9minutes + song, if i didnt remember wrongly, that inspired me to blog. Grr, i havent really been in the blogging mood these days. And im quite glad that i've managed to mug recently. good, i like it! haha.

Hey, the new internet explorer 7 looks cool. i think im quite outdated already since my laptop has been reminding me to install the updates since 2,899,034 years ago. hahaha.

Has there been a time whereby you didnt treasure someone as much as you think you should and then, it feels like you guys are drifting apart. Even if you meet up, it just doesnt feel right anymore? or somewhere along that line. Hmm, im not referring to relationships alright, i mean yeah, r/s but friendships too!

Mm, i feel like i've been leading the life of a hermit recently. Then again, without socialising as much as i did last year, i've managed to do quite a bit of stuff. Like i've just started on Tuesdays with Morrie(okay, dont laugh at me, i only realised i had the book when shuwei fished out the book from my cupboard about a week ago). And i've been doing mini exercises every day, like crunches, leg raises, dips, pushups, stretching of various body parts and stuff. woo. i still feel a bit healthy after doing them although im not as hardcore as oliver and yizha who runs around their favourite serangoon gardens whenever they're bored. And speaking of that, oliver just went to jog AGAIN. grr. nevermind. im a girl! dont need to exercise THAT much right.

Right, and im still pondering over what you wanted to tell me. see, i told you, its YOU! haha. i probably didnt sound very emo or inquisitive but still, i want to know! so please please please tell me whenever you're fine with it. hahaha. its getting me all perked up whenever i think about it. uhh, dont know how to describe. maybe i should learn from qianwei and say "TELL ME TELL ME" in her squeakiest voice ever, and you'll probably oblige!(: okay, i shant force u too.

Speaking of angel and mortal, i've gotta say i absolutely adore my choir angel. its so fun to write to someone whom you dont know and the part about receiving presents from there is orgasmic! yes orgasmic again. ahhaha maybe not to that extent. couldnt find a more suitable word to replace it with. and guess what! my nicest choir angel gave me a mini milk bottle full of peppermint sweets and a letter for my first gift. Then, today i saw a paper bag with my all time favourite HARIBO gummies inside plus another letter. YAY. i feel so guilty to my other 4 mortals and angels. sorry!): hahaha.

Aye, so much more to blog about but whenever i rest my fingers on the keypad, i just cant seem to blog them out. Maybe i shouldnt. haha. okay, i should probably try to get some work done. although i cant think of what. revise some stuff maybe. gosh, im so lagging in physics. but im just gonna wait for my tutor to come and teach me everything i should know about gravitation. haha.

seeyou.
dont get so emo alright(:

I was happily mugging for 1.5hrs doing curve sketching tutorial again for the dont-know-how-many-thousandth-time. until my brain got too preoccupied with thoughts that shouldnt have been there and then i pondered to myself: WHAT's YOUR PROBLEM!? i couldnt take the mounting stress anymore and to avoid brain-burst, i took a deep breath and stopped whatever i was doing then. why? an overload of information you should not have known isnt good. i dont like to be distracted when i study. but all that i can see when i flip the notes and tutorials is just you, and every single thing like the music playing on my ipod, the notes on the papers, the moments just flood my ever puny brain. am i doing the right thing?

I was supposed to be mugging happily after tuition ended and shuwei was at my laptop. Then, after she left, i got stuck on the computer. Started out as a super uber crappy session with ongton the crappiest guy u could ever chat with online then it evolved to emoing on youtube videos and getting sad over a fictional love story. oh boy.

this shouldnt be the case.

then i started fantasizing about having this future stubble-fied man in my life. hahaha, who's there whenever you need him. somehow as usual, like my fellow sagitarrian miss shu, i couldnt think of an appropriate face to fit into the stubby face. ah yes, but how nice would it be, if that someone is always there. see! im getting into the marriage-y mood again. lol. no no no! study study. thats what should be occupying my thoughts right now.

i cant help but feel a bit envious of you sometimes. haha, envious not jealous. im a nice person. okay, random.

goodbye(:

I MUST MUG after i bathe. wweeelala.

LOL. got this from charlotte the spidey's blog. my orbituary is quite cool right(:

A Lonely September - Plain White T's

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

--

Dont you agree with the song lyrics?

HEHE.

i've just squandered the best day of the week - STAY HOME FRIDAY(:

fridays are just so lovable. the thought of not having to wake up at 6.15am is orgasmic, seriously! with that, im proud to announce that i've kept faithfully to my NEW YEAR resolution of attending school at least 4 days a week(: i almost thought i could clinched a perfect score of attending schools five days a week PUNCTUALLY for the first time in my jc life this week. in the end, i still succumbed to temptation and pon on thursday. though i didnt study much, i managed to tan! thats like WHOOPIE GOLDBERG alright!

Today was a healthy and bingeing day. For the past few days, i've been trying to cut down on snacking and having only 2 meals a day. Oh well, wednesday and thursday have been a bit successful and so my weight taking today is still a-o-kay. hahahhaa. Ran 3 rounds, supposedly 4, and played like 20mins of bball with 51girls! yay. its just so funny when you cant toss the stupid disgusting orange thing called a basketball and your friends have to keep it to you so that you could at least throw one into the frigging net! RAH! qian wei was so amusing. lol, i dont feel so lousy afterall. hahahaha.

OK. and i binged alot after i came back. different brands of cuttlefish, hello panda, and many more. grr. but i feel healthy these days, whenever i feel bored, which is 90% of my free time, and i dont feel like mugging, which i dont normally do sadly, i actually do LEG RAISES and CRUNCHES. hoping that my past year sit ups horror whereby i could only do 26 situps will not repeat itself! hahaha, all thanks to that monster T. cos he said that my head didnt touch the ground and so he stood there and continuously said, not counted Not Counted NOT COUNTED. im like GRRRRR. lost all my confidence thereafter. alright. say goodbye to past year horrors.

School was supposed to end kind of early today at like a perfect 1245. too bad h3 had to start at 340. so sj and i were supposed to go cartel to dine with the other guys. in the end, i managed to persuade sj to switch over to thai express just next door and we had glass noodles with tomyum seafood! woooo(: felt so FAT FAT after that. ahahha, but nehmind. shall try exercising more. that saying, im placing more emphasis on my weight than homework already. this is reallly reallly bad. i just cant seem to catch up with the pace of the jc work. ): i need some motivation dude. but then again, im not sure if im able to find that motivation from you! so i guess i'll stick to absence makes the heart grow fonder, hehe. okay, so sj and i had a long candle light lunch chat for about an hour plus before she discovered that she was really late for softball training at tk. rahaha. gugu.

OKAY. i MUST mug this weekend. MUST okay! hope to see a happy entry on sunday(:

yay, there's choir tmr. im not really looking forward to learning those new songs though, which is kind of bad. and sadly, im amazed at my own not-so-looking-forward feeling towards choir. that's bad, i think. sigh): havent i always been a choir-choir person? maybe not.

alright. goodnight and goodbye(:

Dearly beloved, are you listening?

I can't remember a word that you were saying.

Are we demented, or am i disturbed?

The space that's in between insane and insecure.

Oh therapy, can you please fill the void?

Am i retarded, or am i just overjoyed?

Nobody's perfect, and i stand accused.

For lack of a better word and that's my best excuse.


--

I feel disintegrated from the society today.
I feel like what i used to feel previously, again.

Oh therapy, oh therapy.

Today is kind of fun. Had choir as usual and thereafter, i decided to socialize like what i used to do in the past. muahaha.

no more mugging sessions, yeah?

so i went out with a big bunch of year ones, plus huping(who taught me parts of gravitation cos i was zzz-ing during lecture today), may(who misses me lots and lots), elroy, danny and daniel.
Then, i got to know some year ones better.

eg,
Amy Lee - Sure Win(:
Mei Mei - Alena!
Anthony, agung the sji people and xian jun! haha jooseng road dudey. like shi yi yue de mei nu who resides near mount vernon. hahaha.

YEAHHA. this kind of reminds me of those year one days whereby i laugh like no one's business and start making a din in public areas which im usually not very fond of. haha. oh gosh, im such a nuisance.

yes yes. its good to have fun when the year has just started. i better do so before time runs out. speaking of that, i didnt do any work today. feeling terribly remorseful but at least im happy today(:

thanks to everyone who made my day!

Suddenly, i miss my auntie.

I wanted to find the autograph book i used to have when i was young. then, i realised i left it back in the old house. i distinctly remembered that she left a note there for me before she returned to the philippines. it has been 9 years since she's gone, but i recalled that whenever i read it, my cheeks become flushed and tears start rolling down.

there's so much left unspoken. i want to rant them out loud.

i pick up the phone,
i hear silence at the other end.

--

zz. i hate emosundays.
i just skipped tuition.
such a bum.

Why dont you kiss her?
Why dont you tell her?
Why dont you let her see the feelings that you hide.
Cuz' she'll never know, if you never show, the way you feel inside.

Ahh. this song has been ringing in my head for the past few days.

--

I've just reupdated my cyber social life by blog hopping just now. Then, it dawned on me that every other year 2 is sort of turning into a mugger, finally. haha, but this sort of worry me. 'cos i havent exactly been mugging that much, although i return home straight after school these few days. sigh. and yesterday, i suddenly missed the carefree slacker year one life. i suppose almost everyone feels the same way.

There's gp tuition later, again. In contrast to the previous week, im filled with reluctance and despair when the thought of going for gp tuition strikes me. sigh. im getting lazier i know. bum, bum and more bumming around is gonna kill me. oh boy, i havent been mugging these days. the whole of friday and saturday were spent outside, so no work was done. And today, i actually spent about 2hours or so working out 5 probability questions of which i did not know how to solve 2.

i neeed to call my math tutor soon. RAH. is anyone interested in gp tuition? haha.

aye. its the rain i presume, that's making me all stoned out on a brilliant stay-home sunday. sigh. oh shoots. im getting so mooooody recently. how's this suppose to help me into achieving the status of a mugger? ): rah rah and more rah-ings.

FORGET IT.

sorrry, such for such a banal post.

--

Will you be my shoulder?
when im grey and older?
promise me tomorrow starts with you.

Im so tired today. And unlucky.

- ran 2.4 today
- my nike dunks were drenched so i had to wear wet shoes
- aired my socks during gp
- my foot became so cold
- toes became numb
- presence of blood clot in my second toe nail
- sister says that my nail will drop off (!!!) and grow back again
- watched the painted veil
- wasnt as nice as i anticipated it to be
- so freaking tired that i dozed off during the movie
- spent so much today
- computer crashed on me (FIRST TIME)
- because i wanted to clean the keypad and dabbed some wet tissue on the base of the laptop
- couldnt on the laptop thereafter

---

Other than that, i've to thank you for mending my haviannas during the storm and thank you for those encouragements when i was running my 2.4.

YAY.

i love my friends.

this week has been such a muggerified one. haha, going home after school to do my assignments and stuff. next week will not be an exception too.

okay. no more bullshit. im so tired. goodbye.

I finally did four questions of superposition.
three and a half to be exact.

sigh. gave up on the last one.
its so tiring to do work all over again!

I think that i probably think too much, should probably receive an award for being the best thinker in terms of stuff not related to school. AH WELL.

Went for my first gp tuition yesterday at distinction tutorial centre. LOL. i always see her advertisements on brochures and stuff. Then, i was given reading materials regarding ethics and philosophy. I think im neither a technocrat or a philistine, more of a philosophical person since i think so much.

I know this sounds really cliche.
But sometimes, i really wish to return to the past.

AYE.

too much fond memories for me to cling onto. i cant believe i didnt cherish them as much as i wish i did when i think about it now. everything used to be so fun. i destroyed it all.

Its getting kind of late. shall go and pack my bag and probably return to bed. Sleeping is the best remedy for any kind of weird emoness anyone's experiencing i guess.

Word of the day:

shaeyy


Say.
"euu arll dhenn dishhgustiingx larrhhs,, . aniih0ww shaeyy peeppuhhx .,, euu n0rtd anii betta canns ., ccb euu sh0 free gh0 masturrbadte larrhhs .,, nb `.,,"

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HAHAHA. i was telling jialing that shes such a twit. and then with courtesy of www.twitionary.blogspot.com and mr bodyclock who introed me such a reetarded site, i found something thats twittish which sounds so NOVEMBER-ish. read the above line again, it does SOUND like her right? maybe shes a twit and chao ah lian. yes yes. cedarians. lol.

A lucky break is going to keep you smiling all day long. It won't be a lottery win or anything that crazy, but it'll be plenty to make life pleasant until the next big stroke hits.

YAY. thats my daily horoscope! wahhaha. for today(: wee. i still believe in it! anyway, im so delighted! im going to shit now. shitting makes one feel happy. draw up a flowchart for you(:

SHITTING = no CONSTIPATION = feeling LIGHTER = HAPPY ME!(:

yay. i cant take it alr. seeyou(:

hello! i'm really excited now cos this is probably the FIRST time this year(considering the fact that this is just 6th jan though) im gonna post a happy entry!

weehee(:

Alright, so just now shuwei zha and i were at alexandra IKEA having an intellectual talk about our lives, afterlives, about everything that's possible!

HAHA so...

Im gonna tell you everything that you possibly know about but just havent thought about it since eons ago. And why's that so? cos you've been grumbling too much about life and have not pondered over all the GREAT things that have ever happened to you?

Well, lets touch on the most sensitive topic of LOOKS!
Lets see, almost everyone is finding fault with their faces and all the different parts of their body especially THIGHS/CALVES for the choir people. haha, and FACE for sj and i! Then again, think about it, it isnt that important if you are pretty or not right, cos whats most important is that YOU're CONFIDENT of yourself and PRESENT yourself well! Think about the prettiest girl you've ever met?

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Done?
Right, im sure she has confidence in herself and how she puts her personality across to the rest(: Even if you do not have a pleasant and appealing face, which is absolutely not true, cos you've been living in your bubble all along and telling yourself that you're just FAT UGLY and FUGLY, have confidence in yourself! everything will be fine(:

Check.

Did i do that? No. that's why i've been grumbling since the start of new year's day cos i cut my hair and thought i look like a guy. RAH. okay, thats kind of true but think positive and im sure you wouldnt be a noise producer anymore!

Then, what about your friends? Most of us feel that some of our better friends are starting to neglect us and some of us even wallow in self pity, living in self delusion that you dont have any good friends left on planet Earth. NO-NO! its a two way thing basically. A friendship actually takes two hands to clap!

So ask yourself an IMPORTANT question? Have you been reciprocating your feelings to your friends? Did you neglect he/she too?

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Sure you didnt? Cos thats not possible since i believe no one will ever be cold hearted. There's definitely a warm side to everyone(: haha, right? great. Think positive once again! The happy memories that your friends and you have had and cherish them. It's the best feeling ever, i swear. The smile that appear naturally on your faces when you start thinking about them. ooh. get what i mean?

Check.

Sometimes, i feel that way. So reflect on yourself and ask yourself THAT important question. Most of the time, my answer would be NO): aw. Thought through everything? good!

AHHAA. okay, wanted to blog more happy stuff. nevermind. you might not be interested. tralala.

So today's kind of "fun". Cant believe that there's 10 ALTOS this year. hahahhaa. its almost a 200% increase. cos there's only 6altos the prev batch. wahaha. cant wait to see them, heard that the st nicks' are pretty good. ooooh.

rah, my sister's irritating me as usual. fine. shall think positive as usual. but its really hard when my ulcer's irritating me and im experiencing the first day of my period. PMS you know?! lol. stay calm(:

Oh, we cleaned up the choir room today! Exco, CRC, novabelle and shuwei! november and i were i/c of removing the sticky tape on the white board which covered a quarter of a normal classroom size white board. We used thinner to do so and it took about an hour or more! super tiring. Worst of all, thinner actually makes your hand super sticky! i swear i thought novabelle was going to be spider woman (second charlotte!) when her hands initially clenched, had this cool effect when spreaded her fingers. HAHA, in the end, mine ended up something like that. stupid thinner. was all over my hands and some on my legs, face and one drop onto my eye. Thought my contacts was gonna get corroded or whatsoever. LOL.

Went to thaipan and pigged out as usual. i ATE so much again today. sigh. need to exercise alright(: soon, soon! Thereafter, headed to queensway and went to source for school shoes for zha and shuwei. Im really sorry that im a super boring shopping partner when i dont prepare to buy any stuff during the shopping trip. HAHA. but when its me who really wants to shop, i swear i can fly while walking!!

Alright. Im gonna bathe.

Finally last quote of the day, THINK POSITIVE no matter what you face okay(:

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Brr. photobucket sucks. i cant open it on my IE. or maybe my connection blows. LOL.


see three ulcers on the left and one on the right?

omg. this 2 combined tgh makes my tongue feels like its wriggling in some pothole when i massage it. HAHA. check out the size of it. its almost as big as my nail. can u IMAGINE that in your mouth!!


MY four ulcers on my bottom lip suck! rah. and one more on my tongue.I hate internal pimples!!):

seeyou!

It kind of sucks when u have five blooming ulcers in your mouth and tongue and still have to encourage people to join choir and come for the auditions today.

sigh.

and when i dont talk that much, im viewed as ap-ing/stone-ing/pms-ing.
and when i talk too much, i find myself irritat-ing/nagg-ing/bor-ing.

rah.

People dont normally treasure what you have. so i guess you can only blame yourself for what you've lost.
Then again, you always want what you cant have. im glad that its over.

Well, so far i've just been screwing up my bodyclock.

On tuesday, i slept from 5-9am. Then slept again frm 12-4pm.

On wed morning, i slept from 1230-145am. Woke up to sims until 6am whereby i prepared myself for school.

Drank 2 cups of coffee and apparently here i am. not being able to slp. went to sim again just now in order to induce fatigue within my body. haha, luckily tmr i can wake up at 8. so hopefully i get at least 7hrs of slp. walala.

I swear there's at least 5ulcers in my mouth now.
holyshit.

HELLO. the depressed emo kid is back again.

Well, after blogging just now. i actually went to the yahoo! search engine and this is what i typed.

"Short hairstyling tips for round faces"

They gave me lots of celebrities and stuff and how your hair should be like if u have round faces. Then again, the latter didnt really help since my hair was already cut. Nonetheless, i scanned through the points they raised.

If your face is definitely round according to the above criteria, the best hairstyles generally include:

1. Layered rather than straight or heavy bangs.

2. Short styles which provide instant height at the crown. (no, there's no height. im trying to blowdry my hair to attempt to do so and probably look like a butch in the end):)

3. Styles that add length under the chin towards the top of the shoulders such as shags. (PI GU, add what length. its so layered i cant even see it properly in front of the mirror):)

4. Styles that keep the sides of your hair short or closer to the face.

5. Curls around the crown, but never near the cheeks, to create height. Keep the sides of your hair short with a curly style. (Uhh, yes, mentioned in point2)

6. Long to very long styles with bangs and a graduated shag or layers so that the face and the neck are given a slenderizing shape.


SIGH.

Then again, my hair isnt really as short as SOV's if u really are trying to picture it. Its just that, *sobs*, its really really really terrifyingly painstakingly short as compared to my previous long curly woolly hairstyle. SIGH): positive side: i'll probably look neater from now on. thats bad! i dont like!!

So i slept for another 4 hrs just now. horrible. i pray that i can sleep later by 11 or something like that so i can at least wake up by 6 to "style" my hair. RAH):

hey, have u heard the latest news?

there's this nutcracker who went to cut her hair this moming! oh boy, and it was so short that whenever she goes to the toilet, she has to at least stand in there for 5minutes facing the mirror, mourning over the loss of her hair. WHY? her hair's so freaking short now. Then again, its always a failure whenever she heads to the hairdresser. OMG.

SIGH.

now, im inventing new ways of making my hair seem less disastrous. PLEASE dont mock me when you see ugly me with fugly hair tomorrow. I MISS MY HAIR. especially when i see the photos taken recently):

This reminds me of how i felt during SOV when i looked like a man in gown.

I DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL. rah, dampening my spirit. darn!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007 EVERYBODY:)

I hope i manage to finish this blog entry in 53more minutes so that this will be my first post of the year on first jan! weehee. So much has happened yesterday and ahhhhh, it was my BEST BEST BEST new year's eve ever!

Uhh, lets start off with yesterday morning first. I was chatting with fish on the phone for 3hrs and 15minutes or thereabout. ahhahaa. we chatted till 515am or whatsoever. Then, i spotted november online cos she had a stay over. waha. see la, only sleep for 3hrs that day. at least i had about 6 hrs of sleep. Woke up at 11(earlier than fish!) and went to people's park to get my holiday tickets to bali during chinese new year with my family! weehee. As we were walking to the chinatown popular to use up our 20% pop voucher, we sat down and ate at this herbal jelly shop! FREAKING EXPENSIVE lei! 4 bowls = $20! and i shit within 15mins time cos i was alrdy v full. Like so wasted like that. rahrah. ahhahaa.

Then, my mom, sis and i actually spent 210bucks at popular! lucky got 20%. wahseh, didnt know that popular is still so appealing to us. But i got all my stationery geared up for the new year! Got a new bag too from NUM. see, i will be happier when i go to school(:

After shopping at chinatown's popular, took the PURPLE line and went to potong pasir to meet the rest. cant believe hp, rr, fish, may were so nice. Sat at the mrt station and waited for me! lol while i was still taking my own sweet time shopping at popular. We went to percy's house later to coook the dinner feast. By dinner time, the whole gang (hp, rr, wayne, xy, me, may, fish, percy, november, kenny, sindhu, oliver, zha, danny) arrived except for CHARLOTTE the XXX star. hahahaha. felt really bad when i realised we forgot to save dinner for her. only left her with a plate of unglam looking noodles and a chicken wing! raha. see la, work at cartell and u end up with less quality time at the heartwarming dinner with us!!

AND BAD NEWS, i ate a lot during dinner): FAT, SUPER SINFUL!

Ballerinas of the night!

the small boy guitarist, cool fox and spidey!

couldnt help but snapped a shot of my favourite PERCY(:

gugu charlotte who always cant find a place to camwhore whenever we were taking pictures!

This would be PERFECT if spider didnt cover my face with her huge finger!

Dawn's nice living room!

the bitch starts whoring - points to kenny!

the SHY FISH!

the small boy and the cool fox!

MORE whoring!

SEXY MOMMA!

I couldnt resist, but kissed my favourite PERCY!

and then, the XXX picture with the XXX star!

the brownie made for yuting which apparently says HOT!

After dinner, we (mainly hp + the intellectual yours truly) planned a trail for the bday girl - BAMBI WEE YUTING(:! Kind of fun, cos we made up a lot of clues for her. For eg, the first clue, adapted from da vinci code, was suppose to be PLAYGROUND. Then huping suggested shifting one letter down from every alphabet and we derived the cool phrase, OK,ZXFQNTMC. hahaha. something like that. made up 7 more clues for her! So we had this trial run thereafter, planning of many different ways to scare her. The scariest was at the playground and at the basement carpark. ahhaha, danny said he managed to scare yuting cos while she was opening the door and still talking to percy and kenny(her guides for the night), he was crawling on the floor and started charging towards her! ahhahaha, try imagining that at the basement carpark whereby its so quiet!

After the trial runs and scaring of the other girls such as fish and novabelle, we returned to percy's. Shared a lot of dirty jokes and stupid jokes. Started counting down soon after.

It was sort of like, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 and all of us started singing JOY TO THE WORLD! then, we opened the living room windows and sang more carols and waved to everyone who was looking out of the windows in bewilderment. haahhaa. we were like super high and crazy! And then, we waited for the bday girl, yuting, to arrive while all of us scrambled to our own locations. I was with novabelle and may at our station which was at some lobby with this scary lift that always opened with or without people at the first storey. so scary. Chatted for about an hour before yuting arrived. We were so afraid that yuting would be the one scaring us cos we didnt know which way she was coming from. PLUS, novabelle was so scared that she would PEE in her pants after she scared yuting. HAHAHAHA, chao funny.

We didnt really scare her, the two of them just shouted yuting, and while yt was happily walking, i just snapped a shot of her! haha, she even posed!!

After scaring yuting, i made her take this!

Returned to percy's and sang her a bday song which she was so touched by. oh, yeah we were playing with sparklers too! haha, fun. i LOVE sparklers. so amazing to look at when u light them up!

SADLY, novabelle and sindhu had to leave. After they departed, we went to the lobby at some other block and sat down in a circle and had a really really long SHARING SESSION. not bitching! i swear for the first time. hahaha. er, there might be a tinge of it since the ultimate bitch - kenny was with us. HAHAHA. We shared our new year resolutions and then we spent anotehr 2hrs or so telling one another abt our first impressions of each other. IT WAS SO IRRITATING. cos basically, everyone told me that i looked dao/seh and charlotte even said i got ATTITUDE PROBLEM! what the hell!!! only jl, the nice fish, said i was friendly. wahahaha. im not gonna wear the white specs to school anymore already lor!

After the sharing session, we returned to percy's again cos the guard sort of told us that some residents were complaining about our noisy level. lol, he even wanted to open the gym for us, so nice! but we went to percy's anyhow. Most of the people died-ed and drifted off to dreamlands. The few of us(charlotte, kenny, me, may, zha), who were in dawn's bedroom, started chatting or what you more commonly know as bitching. HAHAHA.

Bitched until daylight which was around 7+. The rest woke up soon after and the easterners left potong pasir for our comfy homes in the east. I wasnt that tired initially. But when i took the train, shut my eyelids and blasted my ipod music, i fell asleep. Looking like those retarded commuters who move their heads a lot when they sleep. so stupid! hahaha. I took about 50minutes to reach bedok mrt station. Then, hopped onto 14 at the interchange. spent about 15minutes on the bus and 95% of the time, i was aslp. AND GUESS WHAT!? i missed my stop. about 4-5 stops away from my house. damn, so i got down and took a cab home instead. retarded. by the time i reached my lobby, i couldnt wait to get up to the 27th storey. GUESS WHAT AGAIN!? i reached the lobby and looked at the 3 lifts in disbeliefment. 2 lifts were under maintenance and the 3rd life, had some wires poking out of the screen which shows you which level the lift is at. So for a moment, i thought all 3 lifts werent working. WANTED to complain to maintenance already, its like KNOCK KNOCK! U WANT ME TO CLIMB UP 54flights of stairs when im almost brain dead!? before i knew it, the lift reached the ground floor and i happily entered. hahaha, but its kind of sucky when i have to spend 15minutes waiting for a lift to go down. thats what happened to me a few days ago. shitty bayshore park!):

ok. long long long entry. hahaha, but its new year's day! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE once again(:

Carolling with the year 0s!

stupid yizha who was trying to imply that my bag sucks.

Taken at ikea while we were shopping for furniture for the choir room(:

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Gosh. had such a FILLING dinner just now. my sis and i ordered SAKAE sushi cos they had this new delivery service. We ordered 51bucks worth of stuff from there.

Had like many sushi and gunkan, softshell maki, ten/teriyaki chicken don, fried soft shell crab, gyoza, sashimi, chawanmushi, drinks and miso soup! fiftyone bucks lei. i should stop splurging on food!

yay. going to cut hair tmr morning. ah yes, one more day left to boring lectures and tutorials. OHGOSH. i have to try to live without choir for a week or so. Thats hard. And im definitely not used to seeing my classmates daily again. I miss my holidays. but at least, i know i've had a lot of fun this time round. say HELL to untouched holiday homework and tutorials. LOL.

goodbye 2006 and hello 2007(:

THANKS for making my NEW YEAR's EVE and NEW YEAR'S day such a BLAST(: